Moment of Soliloquy

People Are People

2011-12-10T15:09:00.000+08:00

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"Express gratitude, forgive, avoid social comparisons, seek meaningful friendships, and practice kindness to yourself and others-- these are among the key factors to become happy."‎

What hurts the most? It is when some people don't know what they are talking about and they justify at their own means, even if they hurt some people in the process.

"You can't please everybody". It's a cliche that I know most people concede about making an impression and whatnot. Every person is different, even if they seem so consistent with the color they blend in. Because at some point, as time goes by, each color will start to contrast eventually. And all of sudden, everything will start to change, and then tragedy happens. Some will stay the same, either by choice or not, and some will just show their true colors at the end of the day.

New senses could come and fill every missing inside information. Inhibiting every pain will not come in handy. Because no matter what you do and no matter how many times you try to make things the way it ought to be, it will not.

There are people who think ungodly when they're at rage and there are people who think crucial when hurt.

Life is not about surviving, it's not about who's the toughest and who's the weakest. Life is about understanding it. It's about breathing with an open mind.

A Beautiful Mess

2011-12-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

You've got the best of both worlds

You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,

And lift him back up again

You are strong but youre needy,

Humble but youre greedy

Based on your body language, your shoddy cursive Ive been reading

Youre style is quite selective though your mind is rather reckless

Well I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is

Its like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write

Kind of turn themselves into knives

And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction

But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear

Cause here we are, here we are

Although you are biased I love your advice

Your comebacks theyre quick and probably have to do with your insecurities

Theres no shame in being crazy, depending on how you take these

Words that paraphrasing this relationship were staging

And its a beautiful mess, yes it is

Its like, we are picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say

Kind of turn themselves into blades

And the kind and courteous is a life Ive heard

But its nice to say that we played in the dirt

Cause here, here we are, Here we are

Here we are x7

We're still here

And what a beautiful mess this is

Its like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

And through timeless words and priceless pictures

Well fly like birds not of this earth

And tides they turn and hearts disfigure

But thats no concern when were wounded together

And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts

But its nice today, oh the wait was so worth it .

J-E-R-I

2011-12-07T01:08:00.000+08:00

A feeling that speaks through the soul and sings through the heart, a feeling that is more than a moment, and a feeling that only comes once in a while. This is something that I want to last and yes! I want to feel it every day and forever. When Love knocks on your door, it will surely throw you a smile; and I won't give it back for the world.

I LOVE YOU JERI, and yes. I mean it.

Day 25- What You Think About Your Friends

2011-12-01T11:06:00.000+08:00

So what do I think about my friends? I guess I can say a lot of things about them; funny, odd, thoughtful, kind, sweet, caring, understanding, smart, annoying, cool, lazy, douche bags, bitches-- eer. So I don't have a perfect set of friends, I know that! Every trait, good or bad, that my friends have makes them all unique. I guess being different is cool.

I have new friends now! In that short span of time, I realized that meeting new people is really great. I mean It's my first time, for the longest time, to meet new friends and all, and I'm comfortable being me and I hope the feeling is mutual for them.
I adore how these new friends of mine support me in this new career path that I am in. Thank you guys!

Day 24- A Letter To Your Parents

2011-11-28T00:28:00.001+08:00

This is really awkward. Yes this is! But I have to write a letter and hope that they'll get a chance to read it. Well there's a fat chance that my father can read this, but I doubt that my mother can because she doesn't really read any of my blogs, as far as I know.

Dear Parents,

I know things between you aren't doing good the past days. I know your marriage is put into test, but I'm hoping that you two will end up cuddling again. I know that, you two are mature enough to get things straight in a positive way. You know what? Sometimes, no matter how hard we try to be good and all, to be the best wife or husband, to be the best provider and whatnot; sometimes not everything is going to be the way we think it ought to be. Everything happens for a reason, it's really cliche but once in a while, we have to have a dose of stereotyped quote or whatever. It's more realistic, I guess. Ugh. Sorry for this lame letter. I love you both! I will love you everyday and forever. I will always be here for you guys! So expect me to stay here even if I am married! Ha-ha!

P.S.

I am actually experiencing a hardcore writer's block.

Keep Your Balance

2011-10-26T12:41:00.000+08:00

Because sometimes, even if we try to make the best in life, there will always be a time that we would falter along the way. We would sometimes get scared to move forward because we're too scared to get hurt again, but no matter how much pain we face, no matter how many disappointments we confront day in day out; every part of it shapes every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them, we wouldn't be at the exact place that we are today. And I think that's the real meaning of life. To be able to overcome every obstacle, to take every risk and have every chance of the day to be greater than yesterday, and to be able to understand.

I always have the concept of where I should be few years from now. I always dream of a perfect balance, a balance that will constantly maintain a good sanity. But sometimes the other side of the balance weigh more than the good stuff that I want to happen. And when it happens, I lose control, I lose myself, I lose hope, and the worst part of it; I would sometimes think of giving up. But if I will wish for a perfect balance, then maybe balance will not exist. A balance is an even distribution of weight enabling someone or something to remain upright and steady, and in reality, to have a good balance in life; It should have the good and bad, lies and truth, happy and sad, losing and winning, the total opposites. And the best part of balancing, we learn from it. It makes us stronger and more vulnerable.

It's not having what you want; it's wanting what you've got. Hold on to your dreams, make it real. Make it possible.
Things happen, and you can't make them un-happen. You don't get do-overs, you can't roll back the clock, and the only thing you can change, and the only thing it does any good to worry about, is how you let them affect you
Don't Let Your Fire Go Out, Spark By Irreplaceable Spark In The Hopeless Swaps Of The Not Quite, The Not Yet and The Not At All. Don't Let The Hero Inside Your Soul Perish In The Lonely Frustration Of The Life You Deserved But Was Never Able To Reach. The World You Desire Can Be Won. It Exists. Its Real. Its Possible. Its Yours.

Conversations With Stars

2011-09-24T23:26:00.001+08:00

My love, I'll wait for you
Will you wait for me?
Mmm-mmm-mmm

For now, I'll make believe
I'm a knight, riding to your castle
Mmm-mmm-mmm

I'm almost there

I went to a hillside
Laid down with the stars
I heard a cricket's love song
But nothing of you

Laid awake countless nights thinking
What you might be like
Out of an ocean of faces
Have I met your eyes?

And my favorite part of this song would be "Laid awake countless nights, thinking what you might be like. Out of an ocean of faces, have I met your eyes?".

Day 23- Something You Crave For a Lot

2011-09-15T15:34:00.001+08:00

To crave is to feel a powerful desire for something. I have my list of things that I want to have so bad that I can offer my soul to the devil just to have it. Psych! But kidding aside, all of us crave for something... right? Okay here is my list!

truffle choclate

The first and last that I have had a piece of heaven was in a long and long and long ago. These luscious chocolates are the best! My tita (auntie) sent me a bunch of it way back in college. She bought in the States and every time she gets back there, I always ask her to buy me truffles as pasalubong but she always forget it. And if anyone can tell me where can I buy truffles, please tell me!

And I want alcohol to be in my system once in a while. And definitely a cocktail can satisfy my alcohol needs. I miss my drinking buddies. Camille taught us this cocktail which we enjoyed naman.

This is a beach in Batangas, Philippines. It was taken 2-3 years ago I think. It has been ages since the last time I spent a good vacation with my family in a beach. So long that I really really want to go back there. Any beach will do, as long as it's free! Ha-ha!

I want a professional camera because I want my photography skills to be in another level. But since my parents can't give me one, maybe I have to wait. Darn! If someone will give me one, then I will be the happiest man on Earth for that day. Ha-ha I prefer Canon or Sony DSLRs. Okay?

FALLing in Love

I am listening to "If I Knew Then by Lady Antebellum". Suddenly I crave for Love. A love that can sing to my heart. I want to be romantically linked with someone, someone who I'd wish to spend my life with. I'm single and available, but choice or not, I hope love will come and I hope it knocks on my door soon.

I love puppies! My bitch died months ago, and I miss her. I prefer female dogs since I think they're the sweetest kind.

Day 22- Something You’re Proud of in the Past Few Days

2011-09-14T13:14:00.001+08:00

It's been more than a month now since my academic suicide last August, and I am officially a Bum. Hurrah for me! August ended bittersweet and I guess everything will fall at its place someday and hopefully soon. My family is at their best supporting my decisions and it's a good thing you know?All I thought I can never move forward again, but when as days pass by, I find myself going beyond my range at the least of my expectations. I'm terrified and I can never hide it but I prefer to be passive and go with the flow for now, I mean maybe God offered me a recess for a month or two I supposed, maybe I should make the best of every day knowing myself more. I'm scared to know what World has to offer me, but if the World wants me to believe and do great things for the betterment of my being and my love ones, I would not want to miss it for the world.

I jokingly said to my best friend about my so called itinerary in my life time, and it's like I'm requiring myself a precise accuracy for my wishes and all. And jokes are always half meant and I don't regret what I said, seriously. Maybe it's my way to stay focus or something, or maybe it's my way to tell myself I have a lot of things to do in my life and to regret over the past would not help me survive. Or maybe every plan I have in my life helps me in diverting my attention, in amusing myself and keeping a smile, to day dreaming and whatnot to stop worrying about future stuff and all. But whatever that is, it's keeping me alive.

Okay so have I said anything about something I am proud of in the past few days? Okay so I finally over August, I am done with my driving school (yay!), and hopefully I can have my driver's license one of these days.

I want to share this song. I hope you get to like it.

Day 21- Something/Someone you miss

2011-09-08T13:33:00.001+08:00

It's been so long since the last time I blog for Blogger's 30-Day Challenge. So it's my Day 21 for my 30-Day Challenge and I'm about to reveal what/who I miss. I have a short list on my mind, random stuff that I miss, that I will unfold to my dear readers and followers.

1. Out of Town Trips with my Fabulous Family

- The last time my Family and I went out for an out of town trip was in February 2011. It's the first trip that we had together for this year and nothing followed as far I can remember. My family and I used to go out for a vacation somewhere in the north or south. And surprisingly, things have changed and I'm sad about it. Since the time when my kuya (big brother) got married 3 years ago and moved to Cavite with his family, my parents don't want to spend a vacation without my kuya's family. And because our schedules don't fit together, we find it hard to go out as one. And I miss those days, I miss US.

2. Happy Friends

- As time flies by, my friends and I don't spend much time together anymore. We have our own lives now and it sucks. If only we all live nearby as neighbors, maybe I can visit them whenever I want to or the other way around. But since we don't, I guess technology will be our connection just to keep in touch. I miss hanging out with them, I miss those days when we have 5 days in a week and 20 days in a month together, but we can't go back in high school AND I don't want to go back to puberty for the second time. ha-ha!

3. Fita

- I miss my bitch. She died last year, at the age of 81 in human's life. I miss her, knowing that I can no longer see her pee each time she gets excited. She's the sweetest best friend a man can ever have in his life.

4. Photo Shoot

- Man I miss doing this big time!

Day 20- Someone You See Yourself Marrying/Being With In The Future

2011-09-02T22:26:00.001+08:00

To be with the person who can complete me, to be with the person who can make believe again, to be with the person who I can watch sleep while we are both in bed, and to be with that exceptional someone who I can love everyday and forever-- I'd love to know that someone to be with/marry that crazy lucky someone in the future.

I don't have a particular, or at least a special person in mind who I wish to be with. I mean that someone who I want to spend forever with. But if there's someone who I can spend my life with, I'd let them use me. Maybe I'm a bad a** and hopeless romantic, but I think if that would come, this lucky bastard will get every day filled with unconditional love.

To love and be loved by someone you care about is unimaginable. To give love and to receive love is the best romantic novel someone can share to the world, and I'd love to feel so right and feel glad in each day that will pass singing love song lullaby while we sleep.

Day 19- In This Past Month, What Have You Learned

2011-08-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

I actually thought that all of my dreams will go into ruins after failing. And I was wrong, my dreams didn't go into ruins, it didn't even die. Because if my dreams die, I die as well. To see the possibilities, to redeem myself with faith, and to continue the journey by moving forward-- is a chance that I would not want to miss for the world. Because in every decision I make, in every choice I take-- it will all define me, myself and I.

And that is something I learned in this past month. We can't have the things we want when we demand for it or when we expect it to happen on the time when we want it to take place. Because things will come when the right time comes.

People say that failing is an option. But for me, it's never an option-- failing is a transformation. A transformation that will define you everyday and forever.

Quote:

"But when you share yourself with others: Life begins to find its meaning. The time you touch the lives of others is the moment you truly live your purpose."

Frustrated and Pathetic

2011-08-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

It's surprisingly funny how silly my frustration downloading this game after remembering how I ended up deleting it months ago because I got tired playing it. Imagine putting all my time downloading it when the fact that I know I'll end up uninstalling it when I get tired of it again. I'm frustrated and pathetic! I never learned, I guess.

I'm frustrated because I want to do something just to kill the time. And it's somewhat pathetic of me to embrace again what I gave up months ago.Getting it for free is harder than I thought and time consuming, and buying another copy of it is not a good idea because I need to save money because I am jobless as of now.

I can relate this frustration with the facts of life. So here it goes. People have frustrations in life, and for me there are possible ways to overcome it. First is to wait in vain, second is to find another way for a realistic solution, and third would be giving up.

So the first way is for people how have a very long patience waiting for something to happen. Second is for people who are realistic. And the last one is for people who did the 2 options. Life has its funny way helping you out.

Maybe someday I'll end up buying another copy of that stupid game, but not now. Well, I think if that day would come, maybe a better game just like it will be out in the market.

Day 18- Plans/Dreams/Goals You Have

2011-08-17T15:58:00.001+08:00

As what my best friend always tell me about his itinerary, I also have my own plans. I don't think I can do this all in a day since all of it must be done step by step. If only magic can work with me, then probably I'd cast a spell and make everything easy for me (Aladdin, you're one lucky a**) and have my early retirement before I reach my first quarter here on Earth. So I will tell you now what are my plans/dreams/goals that I have.

1.Wanted: Job

Seriously, after over staying for a year in college and after taking the board exam which I didn't pass (don't feel sorry for me okay), I am in need for a job, blow me one! I applied for a job the other day and I didn't like the offer. And yeah I'm such choosy like that. Honestly, I prefer working in an animal clinic rather than staying in a farm and isolate myself.

2. Wedding Photography

Yay! A dream come true! A friend invited me to be a 2nd photographer for her wedding some time this year. I'm excited actually, finally an offer that I can't refuse! She gave me this a site to inspire me and it did good for my hungry mind and excited spirit.

3. License

Since I don't know how to drive a real car, I'd be learning it one of these days and hopefully next week when I enroll myself in a driving school. And the other reason why I want to learn how to drive is because it's a requirement for some companies that I can work with.

4. Work Abroad

I have plans working abroad since I want to earn double. My friend told me that she can help me find a job, related with my college degree, somewhere in Singapore. She worked in Singapore for 2 years and went back here in the P.I. for her wedding. She has plans to go back to Singapore by next year and hopefully I get to pass the board exam before I leave for abroad next year.

5. Love Life

I watched and kinda relate myself with the movie Eat Pray Love. And Love is what I need to do for myself now. Right now, life ain't so fun because I don't have anyone. I want to conquer the world with a queen someday, like how my friend, Nev, found her king along the way of her journey. That would be sweet if I find mine someday soon!

6. Photography

I love photography and it's obvious to point it out. And I want it into another level! Photography is my second, third, or fourth love. Blah! Whatever! I love photography. And my friend's wedding would be the best step to improve my passion.

And these are my plans. I hope to do this all and make it all real one day at a time. And even unexpected things will happen, I know it all bring me closer to my goals. So help me God!

What about you? What are your plans? Share it to me!

The Wants and The Needs

2011-08-16T11:05:00.001+08:00

People do something to satisfy what they desire, but in just one reality check, everything can suddenly fall apart. And then this thought came into my mind, to have what you need is different from wanting something you just want. And maybe, when you hope for something that you know that will feel so right can be changed suddenly by frustration and uncertainty of reality. It's like even things are lovely, it can all change. And when things start to get rough, you'll realize one thing-- "What if that's not meant to be in first place?"

How can someone know that sweet thoughts sweeping their feet are not meant to take place in verity? Isn't dreams and hopes are great inspiration to pursue what someone wants to happen? So the word "want" tags along, so does it mean that we should only focus on what we really need and not just want we want? Because believe it or not, it's really different to begin with.
My friend once told me that "Everything will come in time because everything is bounded by time". And I know for sure that what she said is absolutely right.

Maybe it should not be always the needs and the wants a person has to attain-- maybe we should also think of risks. Because to need something or to want something comes a big duty, and that would be taking chances and to face the fear of losing your dreams and let it all falter, because alteration leads to a big surprise. Bounding your ideas to yourself fences you in, it prevents you from knowing the world outside, it stops you from being in great possibilities and whatnot. And the worst part of it, it can make you feel alone and get stuck in a moment.
So here's the truth, not all sugar wishes and fancy dreams are meant to happen, well most of the time. Sometimes you have to take the possibility that somethings are meant to happen someday or maybe it's not ever going to happen, not matter how persuasive or tough you are. Because at the end of the day, you just want be happy.

Some feelings don't disappear magically by happy thoughts, sometimes you have to deal and live with it until everything is over and you get to smile again at the end of the day.

To Believe In Something

2011-08-12T15:49:00.001+08:00

Perhaps the most horrifying tragedy that can happen to anyone is to lose their heart's desire. To lose the ardor of living life at its peak can burnout the irreplaceable spark that we have for our dreams. To let people shatter our dreams can give us reasons not to continue our journey, but at the end of the day, we should know how to take obligations and be accountable that life depends on us point blank.

Giving up is an option, it's our choice, and it has always been our destiny. Because in every destruction comes with a wonderful transformation that's so overwhelming, you'll just look back to see how fool we were to let a little mishap take us whole without understanding the reason behind. Life is not about surviving, Life is about understanding it.

To be all for believing is the best defense we can offer for our life in times of falling in the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and not at all. It can reveal the true color we have underneath. Lead your life away from lonely frustrations. We should know that we only have one life to live, and we live it as we believe in living it.

Giving yourself to God can be the best support you can offer to your worried heart and mind. All your troubles and fears can be dissolved with God's affection, and He's one true thing that can give you a soft place to land when you falter. Bring your sanity back, take the peace of mind you want, believe in something you know exist---hope.

"Hope is the expectation that something outside of ourselves, something or someone external, is going to come to our rescue and we will live happily ever after." -unknown

Day 17- Someone You Would Want To Switch Lives With For One Day and Why

2011-08-12T13:11:00.002+08:00

But seriously, if I'd switch lives with him now-- I'd be lying inside his glass coffin.

If I would switch lives with someone for a day, I think it will be former President Ferdinand Marcos. I really think that he's a great president decades ago. He's really smart, and actually he's the smartest president Filipinos have ever known. It's just sad that corruption destroyed his ambition for the betterment of the Republic of the Philippines. If I would be given a chance to switch lives with him for a day, I think I'm going to be the president that most Filipinos would want at that time and today- corruption free government. But I know that "one" day is not enough to change the world that fast, but I think a day of deliverance can still bring a big impact to the world and change history.

But seriously, if I'd switch lives with him now-- I'd be lying inside his glass coffin.

Man Crush

And if I'd switch lives with a celebrity, it will be John Mayer! He has the voice and good looks, a total package for a celebrity, I should say. He's my man crush. LOL Yeah he's my idol when it comes to music and as if I know how to sing and play the guitar like he does. Man I envy this guy. I never get tired of his music. My friend said that his gay but I don't think so and I don't care. He's music is enough for me to switch lives with him.

Irene Craigmile Bolam Amelia Earhart

I also want to switch lives with Amelia Earhart if she's still alive. Because I want to know what happened to her in July 2, 1937. Because some people say she changed her name to Irene Craigmile Bolam. I don't know what really happened to her in the Pacific Ocean, all I know is that Bermuda Triangle took her away.

Day 16- Another Picture of Yourself (Baby Pic!)

2011-08-12T12:31:00.002+08:00

Baby pictures! Tell me I'm adorable because baby pictures should be adorable ha-ha! I don't know where the hell my other pictures are. My mom doesn't keep pictures actually, it's not her thing kasi. I'm the second child of my loving parents, and I'm the most stubborn one. My mom told me that my lolo (grandfather) took care of me when I was a baby. And she even told me that my lolo had a hard time nursing me because I cry a lot.

I think Angelina Jolie didn't know my existence

Gad. Look how small and thin I was 24 years ago. Ha-ha! I don't find this picture attractive or adorable, but maybe my parents did. Maybe if Angelina Jolie started adopting babies at that time, maybe they would have adopted me and raise me as their own. Seriously!

I was born to perform on stage!

I think I remember this picture-- Christmas Program! We danced the Drummer Boy song thingy I think? And I remember the boy behind me, his name is Leandro! Look how I smile!

mini me. 4 years old!

Seriously, I know how to smile even at 4-years old! I'm 4 years old here, Nursery under Ms. Dionisio but now Mrs. Tancingco (I think). She's a nice teacher but I don't know where is she teaching these days.

This is me now.

And this is me for the year 2011! I still look young, right!!???

Day 15- A Letter To Someone Who Has Hurt You Recently

2011-08-11T21:28:00.001+08:00

I didn't expect that I will have something to write for Day-15. This happened when my mind got screwed-up with nonsense, eccentric, and immature behavior that made irrational random thoughts. I know no one is to be blamed, but I don't want to regret the things I said to you last night. As a matter of fact, I'm keeping it but I know you know me fully well even if I fume-- I never kept resentment nor grudge to anyone which is really true about me as a person. This will surpass someday but some things really have to change. I talked to a very close friend of ours regarding with this issue, and she told me the same thing like what I said on the second line of this blog. She's right, and I know no one hears me like you do. Sheryl Crow said this line from her song which I want to share with you: "Not everything is going to be the way we think it ought to be", and she's absolutely right.

I guess I'm just being melodramatic and I don't have the right to say anything against you. Yeah I know I'm a bit emotional these past few days which I am not proud of. Talking about the irony, I wanted you to be with me last weekend and sympathize with me which I don't want other people to do to me.Well I guess it's because I know it's more comfortable and less awkward if you're the ones who would be with me that day. I just wanted a change of subject that moment, you know just to drive away that obnoxious feeling I had the time and replace it with witty humors we have.

I never liked confrontations 'cos it's awkward. I never liked confrontations because I lose words. I never liked confrontations because temper goes first with me and I have the tendency to say anything I want. So I really hope, things will be okay.

I'm a bit disconnected with the choices I have lately. I guess this letter is for you and me to share. I really think it is.

Sincerely yours,

Day 14- Recent pictures you Took

2011-08-11T20:38:00.002+08:00

Day 14 of my 30-Day Blogger Challenge. So I tried doing panoramic photography days ago for fun.

Panoramic photography should be making 3 images to look like one picture, and the best example would be the first photo, the rest were random shots. My camera has panorama settings which helped me to do these panoramic photos.

And this is may favorite shot! She's my niece! I like this photo because of the cuteness factor this picture has! Ha-ha!

Day 13- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 Songs That Play

2011-08-05T11:49:00.009+08:00

I don't have my iPod Shuffle with me so I'll use the playlist I have on my iTunes which contains the same songs I have in my iPod Shuffle. So the first song is New Kind of Cool by The Rescues which I was listening last night before I went sleep. I am surprised! Ha-ha

I can't find a better video but I guess this is okay for you to figure out what kind of tune it has.

And the second song is Anyone But You by Counting Crows. So here's the video of it which is not what I have in mind and also here's its beautiful lyrics.

I'm always thinking
Of someone new
I'm never sitting
Ok with you
There's always something else on my mind
There's always something I can't find

You think about anything you can
I think about you
I'll think about anything it's true

I'm almost perfect
Some of the time
I'm also sinking
Some of the time

I'm almost ready
Yeah, it's almost true
For almost anyone but you

You think about anything you can
I think about you
I'll think about everything it's true

I'm always sinking
Beneath the sand
You're holding nothing in your hand

You think about anything you can
I think about you
But I'll think about anything it's true

And the 3rd song is Black Star by Radiohead! I like Radiohead! Oh.my. I think every song I have has the same mood. I hope not!

4th song is All This Time by OneRepublic. The song tells about someone who is looking for love and realizes that what he's been searching for is just in front of him. The irony!

Oh my. The 5th song is Flicker In My Eye by Hotel Lights. And now I feel melancholy with all these shuffled songs. I demand a reshuffle! There's no music video on Youtube so try looking for it somewhere!

The 6th song is You And Whose Army by Radiohead.

The 7th song is Fair by Remy Zero.

8th song is Skipalong by Lenka.

9th song isWhite Lies by PaoloNutini.

The last song is If You Ever Come Back by The Script. Thank you Script because you gave my blog entry some soothing tempo!

P.S. The songs after the 9th song are better! Rock and Roll! WTH! Ha-ha!

Day 12- How you Found Out About Blogger and Why You Made One

2011-08-05T11:13:00.003+08:00

I started blogging in October 2008, it's also the same day that I discovered Blogspot. I was told about Wordpress but I chose to stick with Blogspot. I found out Blogspot by Google! Because I know Google has all the information that I need. Anyway I decided to blog because my mom invaded my journal that made me feel a bit awkward. And ironically, blogging on blogsphere does the same thing!

I'm going to share with you my first blog here on Blogspot. It's mawkishly sentimental but hey, I wrote it!

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A Letter For Someone

I will feel alright. With all these grudges, loudness of peers, strong passion, and skepticism; I know things will be okay. I am ahead of this wild imagination. I have spoken to myself lately. I can do this, I may be blinded and suffocated by you; I know I can breathe again. There may be a handful of predicaments, illusions, and worries; I know I cannot let myself sink six feet under this sentiment. All the time, I let myself be fooled by your eyes, be fooled by your serene presence near me. You may be the last breath in my lungs, but I can fill the emptiness when time comes that you’re not in me.
Do you want to see it? The place where I’d rather be? Because in my mind I mean it, that you’re more than what I thought you were; uncertainty and doubt. There is no one in between. I am looking for love, and there’s too much mistake. You’re something beautiful, and I want to trade you for something real, and not just an illusion.

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It looks emo-ish and actually it is! Blogging helps me to express how I feel artistically or what ever you call it. Blogging is a therapy for me. It's helping me to bring out my thoughts that I find awkward to share verbally. Blogging is my way to tell the world and every people in it that there's someone from 8 Billion souls who knows how to pen on a cyberpaper and be sincere about it.

Writing is one of my passions. Before I learned to use the Internet, I used to write in on a real paper. I write my own poems too!! So here's my first poem I wrote here on Blogspot.

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So many nights trying to hide it
But now I stay awake pleading for more
To think this heart's divided
I'm losing sleep cause I can't ignore

Feeling your touch all around
Peacefully hearing the sound
Of silence around us, so glad we found us this way

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within

Can't get enough of you

I want to be where you are
In times of need I just want you to stay
I leave a note on your car
When I can't find the right words to say

Hearing your voice all around
The last place we're going is down
I'll blindly follow knowing you're leading the way

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within

With you in time
There's nothing else
My life stands still
You are the will that makes me strong
Make me strong
If ever alone in this world I know I'll always...

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within
You sleep, here in my arms
Where the world just shuts down for awhile
Blindly, you came to me
Finding peace and belief in this smile
Find some peace and belief in this smile

Can't get enough of you

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And now I realized how awful this poem is! Ha-ha. Imagine the reality about emotions. "Once something is over and you've moved on and looked back again, you'll realize that it's not that overwhelming after all."

Blogging is good for the soul, heart, and mind. I actually told my friend to blog to make him busy and avoid thinking of his dreadful and emotional thoughts that he's going through. And I'm glad that it helped him and still helping him.

Day 11- Your Idea of a Perfect Date

2011-08-05T10:36:00.001+08:00

A lot of us can think of a perfect date. It can be dinner at the beach or fine dining in a fancy restaurant. But for me, a date is not about the dreamy place that's on your mind that you see in movies and whatnot. For me, dating is about the good feeling of a moment. My idea of a perfect date would be in an amusement park! Because I find it somewhat casual and at the same time, worry free with what to do next-- because everything fun is in a amusement park.

I don't date random people, I prefer to date people who I like (why on earth would I date total strangers?) to know more and people who want to have fun with me. And for me, to date in an amusement park is the right place to enjoy each other's company.

I'm a person who doesn't want to sit and stay in one place when I date, I prefer to stroll around while talking and having fun with the person I'm with at the moment. I want the person, who I date, smiling while having a leisure time with me. A real smile and not just a casual smile, okay?

I'm a person who hates dull moments when I'm with someone, I break the ice to ease the awkwardness by telling jokes even if sometimes it's corny, which I hope not a turn off with most of the people.

•Day 10- Songs You Listen To When You Are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

2011-07-24T21:37:00.003+08:00

Music is what feelings sound like. ~Author Unknown

All of us can enjoy music; whether it's pop, rock, classical, and acoustic. It's one of the greatest invention of all time! Music can set our mood from melancholic to sanguine or from weary to peppy. Music is the nutriment for our soul. And for sure, all of us have our favorites when it comes to music. Here are the songs which I listen when I'm happy, sad, bored, hyped and mad.

No Such A Thing

by John Mayer

John Mayer is an old time favorite of mine when it comes to music. And this song tells me that we should be more than the person we are. We all should be keep moving forward and make the most of every day. We should never be afraid to try new things, life is short!

Favorite Line:

They love to tell you

Stay inside the lines

But something's better
On the other side

I am invincible
As long as I'm alive

Angel

by Sarah Mclachlan

If someone would ask me how angels sing, I'll them about Sarah Mclachlan. I'm a fan or Sarah's music since elementary. The first time I heard her song, Angel, was on the radio and fell in love with her voice ever since. Angel is the song I listen when I get sad and hopeless. Actually it was the song that I listened when my grandparents died 2 years ago. The songs tell it all. Every word is heartfelt.

Favorite Line: (all of it actually)

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight life
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Fire

by Augustana

I like Augustana! I can't remember when's the first time I heard their songs but I know it was years ago! This song is what I listen to when I'm bored! I actually sing this song until my lungs collapsed! Ha-ha! I actually have a record of my version on my Facebook account. There's nothing special about the lyrics, I just love singing it, especially the last part where I have to hold my breath at the end!

Supermassive Black Hole

by Muse

This song of Muse stimulates me. It has angst and cool beat! It's also gives me this sensitivity about sexual stereotypes. It's really sexy for me. I feel strong and vigorous each time I listen to this song.

I DON'T THINK I HAVE A SONG WHEN I'M MAD!!!

Day 09- Nicknames You Have and Why Do You Have Them

2011-07-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

My real name is Augustus Benedict Angeles Benedicto and I have lots of nicknames, all from silly stories. People at home call me "Ogot". Well all the people who know me personally call me with that nickname. Actually, I have the same nickname with a cousin of mine in the paternal side of my family but I haven't met him. I'm still using my nickname until today. And you know what? There's always a time when I get vexed with people who can't address me properly, my nickname is short and I don't know why they always make a mistake addressing me properly.

There's a time when I called a friend on the phone and someone answered my call and asked my name to address me properly. I always say "Si Ogot po" (It's Ogot)", then the person will confirm my name on the phone. And the annoying part would be addressing me as "Agot". I don't know if I had a girly voice when I was young or they just had a hard time hearing my name properly on the phone.

Some people would ask me why my nickname's Ogot? So that's the time when I'll say my full name to them just to relate it with my nickname. Because of Augustus is my first name, they would sometimes combine it with my nickname, which is Ogot. So the nickname "Augot" was born. And the funny thing about it is that people would pronounce it as "Aw-got". Silly.

My 2 brothers and I share the same second name which is Benedict. My brothers friends call them Benedict or Ben.As for me, there are only 2 people who call me by my second name; Angela Fabian (Sorority Sister) and Andrew Gan. But Andrew is different with Angela since Andrew would sometimes call me "Ben" rather than calling me "Benedict". I'm not used with that name actually, but since he prefers calling me Ben then I guess it's okay.

I was also called "Mahal or Love" by my ex-girlfriend. But until today, she still use that name on me whenever we get time to talk or meet. My other ex-girlfriend called me "Angel" when we were lovebirds, since she thinks that I'm her angel, and she still use that name on me.

And some lazy people would call me "'Got", short for Ogot. So now you know where my nicknames came from.

Camille Glodoviza Set

2011-07-24T05:10:00.000+08:00

Model: Camille Glodoviza

Photographer: Augustus Benedicto

Theme: Panthera pardus

Day 08- Define Crush, Like, Like-Like, Infatuation, Love, and In Love

2011-07-23T15:30:00.000+08:00

Day 8. The Defining. I'll be straightforward. What is crush? Crush is an admiration, and believe me crushes don't go far. Like is casual without sexual desire or whatever. Like-like is whimsical or playful. Infatuation is an intense but short-lived passion or admiration for someone or something. Love is a warm affection. And being in love means enamored: marked by foolish or unreasoning fondness, crazy love.

Let's Talk About Love.

It's easy to say those words, but the big surprise about it is people still get lost when they get in the middle of the not sure and the not quite when it comes with affection. Some people don't know the right or exact words to say that can define how they really feel for someone. But actually, people do know what they feel, they're happy feeling it. It's a great feeling to begin with, to feel happy with someone you know is he best feeling in the world. To have that rainbow smile on your face and to be the opposite of down, should not worry you at all, that's normal. Take it, it's yours.

But most of us don't want to be "just" happy. Most of us want to a guarantee when it comes to love. Most of us want our emotional investment to prosper someday. Seriously, how many of us wished that one day the person we love, decides to love us back? And how many of us let our fear, for rejection, to get the best of us?

Love takes time and time is always on our side, but time can take away everything from us if we ignore it. No one can tell when everything will end, no one can tell you that tomorrow is too late for you to express how you feel for someone.

Joe D'Mango once said that "Expressing it out can make a big difference.". It's real, once you expressed how you feel can bring an impact to your life, it can change your day into a moment and have a new beginning later on.

Crushes don't go far. Infatuation is intense but short-lived admiration. But when you realize that you want your feeling to go far and when you feel that it's longer than infatuation-- you're in love. Congratulations! Make the most of it.

Love with all your heart, love without expecting in return, love unconditionally, love with your heart.

Take risks and take every chance that goes your way. Love will find your way.

P.S.

I'll do better next time, run out of words to say. But I hope you liked it!

Day 07- A Picture of Someone/Something That Has The Biggest Impact On You

2011-07-22T13:46:00.000+08:00

"Buying a Nikon doesn't make you a photographer. It makes you a Nikon owner. -Anonymous". Photography has the biggest impact on me. This is one of the talents I have that I'm proud of. Actually I don't want to call it a talent, I'd want to call it "ardor".

I didn't know that I'd fall in love with photography itself. I like pictures, just like that before. But when I found myself falling in love with photography, I'm loving it everyday and forever! I was asked before by a fellow veterinarian if I have plans to take photography seriously. And I said yes, maybe someday I'll be more than an amateur, but for now I have other stuff on top of my list. *Ehem* Board Exam.
Yeah this blog entry is short than the usual.

Day 06- Favorite Super Hero and Why

2011-07-18T09:50:00.000+08:00

Day 6, Favorite Super Hero and Why. My super hero can be someone from the history book, a comic hero from the Marvels, Teen Wolf or probably Hiro Nakamura of Heroes. But the truth is, my super hero is One Tree Hill. And yes you're right, it's a television show! I can't remember when was the first time I got hooked with OTH (One Tree Hill), but as far as I can remember, I've watched seasons 1-4 and after those seasons I failed to continue onward. Maybe you're wondering why I chose OTH when there are better super heroes nowadays; like vampires, werewolves, and wizards! I chose OTH because of the inspirational quotes from the voice-over from OTH's characters while a scene's playing. So I will share you some inspiration quotes from One Tree Hill.

Quotes:

"To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight. And never stop fighting."
-e.e. cummings

"Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives or if the moments in our lives make us?"

"If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back."

"Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.

Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.

But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did -- but, for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say that could've save someone that we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way."

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment who will you be? Will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fear bravely? And move forward with faith. Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?"

"The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead."

"Henry James once wrote: 'Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact."

"John Steinbeck once wrote: 'Change comes like a little wind that ruffles the curtains at dawn, and it comes like the stealthy perfume of wildflowers hidden in the grass."

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes.. all you need is 1."

"And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be... or lose that person completely."

"Because, sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are."

"Stephen King once wrote: 'Time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. Time takes it all, time bears it away.. and in the end.. there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometime we lose them there again."

"As happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone."

Sometimes when you're young, you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans. Big plans. To find your perfect match. The one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. At the end, when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you're leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.

It's been said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been ? But what of the man who's faced with what was? Or what may never be? Or what can no longer be? Choosing the right path is never easy. It's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. But sometimes we find our way to something better. Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealously and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be. And that's when we find our way to something better or something better finds its way to us.

Okay so there lots of these quotes over the internet. For more quotes, click this LINK.

Day 05- Most Visited Websites

2011-07-16T08:57:00.000+08:00

There are 5 websites I check each time I go to cyberspace.

FACEBOOK

The ever popular social networking website in the world! I use it to communicate with close friends and relatives, and unforgotten people I used to call friends. I was a Friendster user before, but since most of my friends are using Facebook, I deleted my account. But I made a new account again on Friendster because they offer new games there, go and check it out! Anyway, I have 2 accounts on Facebook and it's private.It's for the people I know personally. And the other one is what I use for stalking! Yes I stalk! Ha-ha! But not the scary stalker, I think! I'm a stalker Veronica Callanta! But I don't do it often like before, it's just that I like her!

TWITTER

This is one social networking site I didn't expect to enjoy before. But I like it! I can post anything I want since it's created to be like that unlike Facebook where people post ~~ANYTHING~~ and ~~EVERYTHING~~ there! I have a few followers there but I don't mind. My phone does the tweeting for me everyday, thank you Android!

FLICKR

I like this site, it's for people who do photography and blog for photography. But sad to say, people her in the P.I. don't update their Flickr account that often. Do you know where I can find Filipino photographers who use Flickr for sharing photos? I would like to know the name of their group on Flickr so I can join and show them my photos!!! Thank you in advance!

ROCK n Roll Bride

This was introduced to me by a friend last month. And I love it! It's about wedding photography and it's awesome!!! I love everything in it! I read something about Photography and it's said there that wedding photography is a good start for amateur photographers-- that's me!

BLOGSPOT

And yes, obviously. BOOM!

Day 04- A Habit That You Wish You Didn't Have

2011-07-14T12:03:00.000+08:00

"Before you hate something, you must love it first.". This is what I can say with my habit that I wish I didn't have. I hate to admit but I love and enjoy smoking even if it can hurt me big time (love hurts) someday and hopefully not soon (cross your fingers!). The first time I tried smoking was when I'm on my first year in high school. I tried it once and I never tried it again. I didn't let myself smoke cigarette or yosi (here in the P.I.). But when I went to college, this freaking habit tagged along with my day in day out routine for 7 years and still counting. Everyone in my family, excluded my 14-year old brother, smokes cigarettes and of the same brand! Seriously.

There were 2 incidence happened that made me realize that it's okay for my parents that I smoke. It was summer, right after I took the NVAT (in 2006 I think), my Family and I went to Laguna to celebrate my parent's wedding anniversary. I was uneasy that day because I'm scared to fail the exam. My loving mother noticed me and gave me one stick of cigarette to relieve the tense that I was feeling that day. When Typhoon Ondoy came here in the P.I., my father and I got stranded in Metro, Manila and had nothing to eat nor drink! My father handed me one stick of cigarette because it was what he had that time. Ha-ha! But even if I am allowed to smoke, I don't want my father to see me smoking because it's kinda uncomfortable in my part, but my mom and I smoke together, a lot!

My friend gave me an Electronic Cigarette or E-Cigarette last Christmas to save me from the unhealthy effects of real cigarettes. It didn't help, at all!

Someday I know I'll stop or maybe lessen my cigarette intake. And I do hope that it's not too late for me!

Day 03- A Picture of You And Your Friends

2011-07-13T05:23:00.000+08:00

So what will you see now are pictures of my friends who I hang out with, well most of the time. I met these people long time ago and I don't want to count those awesome years I spent with these lovely people who I call friends slash siblings.

we do this a lot

That's Irwin and Camille. We're friends since high school until today. Irwin works abroad for 3 years, I think. Right after college he went abroad to be with his family in Qatar and work there. He's my best friend and we talk often now because he needs a real friend. It's a mystery to me why he's considering me his real friend since I'm a fake friend to him. Just kidding! Ha-ha! And the girl in the middle is just a "nobody".

Mi Modelo

The girl in the middle on the first picture is this lovely gal! Her name is Camille. She's one hard working girl. A strong girl because she's actually a man. Kidding! Camille worked for a living before when her mom went to Hongkong and had some personal problems there. Honestly speaking, we hang out more often than the rest of our friends. This girl is like a family to me! My family is comfortable with this lovely critter because she's cool and funny like that! But NO we can't be together as lovers because it will be incest! Ha-ha!

Chasing White

This is Tina, Camille's childhood sweetheart. Ha-ha! No she's Camille's best friend since birth. She became my friend when Camille introduced her to us, our barkada. It was a very long time ago but I think we were in college back then. She's thoughtful and smart, her pretty face is just a extra luggage that goes along with her nice personality.

Candy or Betcha.. whatever!

That's Betcha/Candy but I know her as Elizabeth way back in high school. This is one pretty girl, she rarely talks but laughs and smiles a lot, seriously! She has a boyfriend who idolizes this Korean actor in Korea (obviously). When I saw her after college in Tina's house, man I got surprised! She was a simple girl in high school. She's thin and has this long black hair. But when I saw her after college, she's pretty as an angel now, and mind you, an angel with curves! Late bloomer! BOOM!

The Girl

Irwin and I always talk about Charese as a person, because we noticed that she didn't change at all after high school. She's like a living vampire! She is what she was in high school, physically and socially! So funny to think that she's a living proof of immortal's existence! Ha-ha! She's working and studying now. We rarely talk these days because she's busy with her life. But she's still the same person, same personality but has a different stress level because of her duties now.

Here are some old pictures.

Irwin's firs home coming

Gigi, Charese, Tina and Clod, and Philip.
CHRISTMAS PARTY

After Christmas Party

These are the people who I call "treasure". We're always there for each other, in sickness and in health, through thick and thin, forever and everyday! Someday soon our children will be friends too!

Day 02- The Meaning Behind Your Blogger Name

2011-07-12T04:27:00.000+08:00

I've been blogging for a very long time now, until this day I still enjoy blogging. I used to keep a journal when I was in high school, and then cyberpaper was introduced to me years ago so I started blogging on the Internet. I don't know if I started on Friendster or Multiply but it doesn't matter anyway. So this is Day 2 of my 30-Day Blog Challenge and I will be writing about the meaning behind my blogger name.

The Meaning Behind Your Blogger Name. Moment of Soliloquy.

I didn't know the word Soliloquy back then, so I have a different blogger name before BUT I forgot what was my first blogger name on blogspot's blogsphere. Anyway, I learned the word Soliloquy from a song by an American Rockband, Alesana. The title of the song is A Siren's Soliloquy. I got curious by the word Soliloquy, and when I found out the meaning of it I said this to myself, "Hey, this is what I do and write about with most of my blogs!" These are not the exact words I said before but the thought's just the same. Ha-ha!

For you people who don't know what does Soliloquy mean, check this link. And for you people who don't want to click that link then Soliloquy means (n) A written composition, reciting what it is supposed a person says to himself. (n) The act of talking to one's self; a discourse made by one in solitude to one's self; monologue. Okay now you know! Hurrah!

I actually talk to myself before I go to sleep. It's kinda weird but I actually talk, verbally! Thank God no one has heard me talking to myself when I'm in my room. Most of what I have on my mind are written here on my blog page. Most of my blogs talk about what happened to my day, it talks about myself, lesson learned or just my reflection for the day.

One person before asked me anonymously on Formspring if using the word Soliloquy on my blog will make me an intellectual person. I guess so! Because I think I'm one foot ahead of him for knowing a word like that. I am not using this title to tell the world I'm a know-it-all kind of blogger, the title fits my blogs so I'm using it as my blogger name.

So people now you know the meaning behind my blogger name!

P.S.

I actually thought that I should right about my name, but BLOGGER'S NAME AND BLOGGER NAME are two different words. I seriously thought it was a typographical error or something.

Day 01- A Recent Picture of You and 15 Interesting Facts About Yourself

2011-07-11T18:40:00.000+08:00

Day 1: "A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself". And yes this is what I look like now, today, or at this very moment. And this is my first blog for the "A Blogger's 30-Day Challenge". I think I have blogged facts about myself from my previous blogs. I was thinking to copy and paste that blog entry here but I can't find where that is. ha-ha! Sorry.

Anyway here are the 15 Interesting facts about me.

I'm getting ready for my upcoming Veterinary Licensure Exam on August 1-3 this year. I'm a bit excited and nervous at the same time. This will be my first time to take the Licensure Exam and I'm doing my best to pass and get that license to practice this year! Pray for me, would you?
I'm currently single, yeah for 3 years! I go on dates but I haven't found "The One". But I know she's out there! I wish to date Veronica Callanta! Ha-ha! I have a huge crush on her! I kinda stalk her on Facebook and Twitter and I'm proud of that!
I like photography! Seriously if ever I'll live again, I'd still love to do photography! I love Portrait Photography, and it's one thing that I want to develop someday soon.
My first best friends were Alpha and Jefferson. They were my best friends way back. If I'm not mistaken I think way back in first level of grade school. Such a long time, I know! I haven't heard from them again after High School. But Jefferson and I met last May in a Welcome Party of a common friend of ours in High School.
I spend most of my time in my room. I sleep 10-12 hours since I don't have a job, because I want to take the board exam first before looking for a job.
My best friend's name is Irwin Famatiga. We're good friends since 3rd Year of High School, he works abroad now! He's the only guy best friend I have in the world! And I know he's reading this now. @Irwin, GO TO HELL! HA-HA!
I admire Ira Giorgetti's photography! Man he's really good at it! I envy him for that!
I like Pecadillo! It's my favorite food in the whole wide world!
I love music. When I was still young, my mom used to buy me "cassette tapes"! Ha-ha! I like Boy Band then because they're popular at that time. My first cassette tape was Damage (are they still alive?). They're black Americans, I think. Then I had Code Red and even Celine Dion! Ha-ha! Hey Celine Dion is a great singer! I currently have 5896 songs on my iTunes-- that's how I love music! I like different genre except for SCREAMO! Man all they do is to damage their throats shouting like hell dogs!
My big brother and I used to quarrel before. There was a time that I kicked his balls real hard! But since we're grown-ups now, we're good!
I want to get married at the age of 27! I'm months closer to my first quarter and I feel kinda old for my age. But my goal will change, I know it will!
I have plans working abroad. I think I can earn more when working abroad! But if my future job here is okay then probably I will not leave the country.
Some people think that I'm a snob. But I'm not! Maybe I look like one but I am really not. People should get to know me first, right?
I sometimes want to be alone. Like no one would distract me or talk to me when I don't want someone to put their attention on me. But I hate the feeling of being alone. Eer you know what I mean!
And last, I'm not human. I'm half-werewolf and half-vampire! Ha-ha!

A Blogger's 30-Day Challenge

2011-07-11T17:15:00.024+08:00

Writer's block is not nice. I've been under it for 2 consecutive weeks already. And because of it, I will challenge myself with "A Blogger's 30-Day Challenge". I read this on thecaterwauler and I think it can help me bring back my dying spark for writing. Thank you Nev for this!

Note: It doesn't mean that I will blog for 30 consecutive days, okay?

Here are things that I will blog about:

~~•Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself~~
~~•Day 02- The meaning behind your Blogger name~~
~~•Day 03- A picture of you and your friends~~
~~•Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have~~
~~•Day 05- Most visited websites.~~
~~•Day 06- Favorite super hero and why~~
~~•Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you~~
~~•Day 08- Define crush, like, like-like, infatuation, love, and in love~~
~~•Day 09- Nicknames you have; why do you have them~~
~~•Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad~~
~~•Day 11- Your idea of a perfect date~~
~~•Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one~~
~~•Day 13- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play~~
~~•Day 14- Recent pictures you took~~
~~•Day 15- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently~~
~~•Day 16- Another picture of yourself (baby pic!)~~
•~~Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why~~
~~•Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have~~
~~•Day 19- In this past month, what have you learned~~
~~•Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future~~
~~•Day 21- Something/Someone you miss~~
~~•Day 22- Something you’re proud of in the past few days~~
•~~Day 23- Something you crave for a lot~~
~~•Day 24- A letter to your parents~~
•~~Day 25-~~ ~~What you think about your friends~~
•Day 26- Tell something about your day.
•Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
•Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
•Day 29-A picture of something that makes you happy
•Day 30- Who are you?

I'm excited to do this and I hope I make this to happen ASAP. Ha-ha! So dear readers and fellow bloggers, let's try this! It will be fun!!!!

Paranoid-Friend-Battling-Fear

2011-07-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

How are you today? Well it's raining outside and I'm still having my hiatus at this very moment. Well nothing seems to change with my day in day out routine and I think this somewhat boring but comfortable or at least. I don't want to bother what to do tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, in fact it's easier to be this way. If I preoccupy myself pestering for tomorrow's errands then most likely I can not do anything for today. Right?

My best friend has been calling me several days now. He talks about his dreary feeling for his life abroad or should I say goofy boredom abroad. He worries a lot about things that have not happened, his anticipation about it is really eccentric. He's paranoid actually.

I told him to get a hobby or something that can take his mind off worrying about stuff and all. It's not healthy to feed your mind with anxiety. It can draw your attention aloof to what you have to do for a certain day; like appreciating things you have, making the people you love and care happy, and most especially living life at its fullest.

He's recovering little by little (yay!), he reads the Bible and talk to God by praying. And I should say that it's a very good thing to do in times of getting stuck somewhere in the middle of nowhere. I find myself sometimes lost in amidst too, lost in uncertainty and bewilderment. Giving yourself to Him is the best course you can find to find your way out of obscurity.

Fear is the hardest thing to battle, but it's the best battle you would want to win over. Give yourself to God and He'll do the rest.

.Shi(f)ting.

2011-06-28T15:12:00.002+08:00

I'm in total madness because of this grand frustration of becoming someone I thought I should be rather than being great with what I should be doing best. I'm dreaming outside the box, and I can't stop myself not to think about it. I feel like hitting the ground any moment if I don't resolve this freakin' sentiment that has been hitting my head these past few days. Believe me, reality really bites and I'm worrying ambitiously which what I told my friend the other day to avoid. It seems that I'm standing on the same ground like my friend, I want to deny this crazy truth but I just can't help myself. Yeah I know, something is really weird about me and I don't want to play cool about it 'cos it will not change anything.

I'm not perfect and I should not worry about it, I do get bored easily especially when I can't see myself reigning with sunshine. I always tell myself to be thankful with what I have since small things are great too, but it's just that frustration is killing my lala land and oh I think my mood is shifting now. Ha-ha. Did I say I'm weird? I'm cool with it--I guess.

Oh for those who got lost, these are my frustrations:

1. Past the freakin' board exam this year to have my license to practice.

2. To do best with photography.

3. I wish someone would give me one professional camera as a gift. Canon or Sony! Boom!

4. I want a fantastic job this year.

5. Be in a serious relationship.

6. Make this world a better place.

7. To have the best sunshine in world.

8. Be on the positive side, day in day out.

9. I want to have my own studio.

10. To have a bigger room facing the sunshine.

11. Have a bottle of joy with my fabulous family and wonderful friends.

Beautiful Mess

2011-06-28T01:30:00.001+08:00

You have my soul and I just want you to know

If I can just hold you then I will never let go

I feel so right, I feel just fine

To have you by my side, I will not dare to look back

I want to get stuck in a moment with you

Let me hold you just for tonight

And I will never go back home again

I don't want to remember a time when you will say goodbye

Because this feeling will never shift no more

I want to remember that we'll be together forever

I'm not done with you, because this feeling will never falter

A lot like love, something that will never change

If I could just have one wish

I want you to need me

I want you to love me more

I want you to ask me to stay

I miss you

I need you

No one can take your place

I love you, and I will always will

Do you feel the same? I hope you do.
My heart's open and I hope you feel the same.

Infatuated Summer

2011-06-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

I felt good and real nice to this wonderful girl I met last summer. She's nice, funny, and sweet. Her pretty face is an extra bonus for her nice personality and all. I thought I'm on the right track toward this great love, but I was wrong. I recently realized that I was just inspired with an intense but short-lived admiration for her; no more, no less. I found out that she's nice and just okay to be a friend. Maybe it's because I have never felt that "dainty feeling" since the time of yore, and she came just in time to make my sad heart happy even for a while. I thank her for that!
I dated her once, and the second was nothing but a simple hangout that lasted I think 2 and half hours (so basically I dated her once lang talaga). I don't know her much but it's a good thing that she has shared her small part of life story to me.
Happiness comes once in a while, good people come once in a while. Nothing is permanent in this world but for cliches. If a shower of spark will light your sad dark world, let it happen. Never let a moment to pass by. Most especially, if you want to be happy then live for the moment. Satisfy your heart's desire, and once you have what you want; make the most of it and make it last.
"When it rains, it does pour..."

We're Official!

2011-06-18T19:23:00.002+08:00

Jam and I decided to do this photo shoot together but she didn't make it. So this is my first official photo shoot with my beautiful and supportive friend, Tina.

How do you love candid? This turned me on!

She knows what to do and I love her for that!

I love this! Vampire mode!

This reminds me of the Wednesday Addams!

I love this shot!

Moi and mi modelo!

And yes! We're officially amateurs! yay!

Music of my...

2011-06-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

Jimmy Eat World

23 by Jimmy Eat World

I love this band! I'm loving it for years now. This song reminds me of someone from the past, like three years ago, I think. I don't know the names of the members of this band (I don't bother knowing band members' names actually) but I love their music! They ain't bad after all!

John Mayer

Back To You by John Mayer

This man rocks!!!! He's a pure talent and all! I listen to his music each time I'm on the road watching fleeting images and day dreaming.

Dare You To Move by Switchfoot

All time favorite band! Yeah! I think they have been to Manila, twice, but I wasn't able to see them play live! I'm one lame fan, am I not?

So Here We Are by Bloc Party

So Here We Are is my personal favorite. That's all!

Brand New Day by Fireflight

This band was introduced by my friend recently. I find their genre similar with Paramore and Flyleaf but I don't care.

But Honestly by Foo Fighters

Here are some lines that I like about this song.

Don't take what I don't need

(Give me back my peace of mind)

Don't say what I don't need

(Give me back my precious time)

No way you'll silence me

(Give me back my peace and quiet)

Nowhere to hide from me

You'll see

First Day High

2011-06-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

First day in college? I remember it like it was yesterday. Actually it was 7 years ago when my college life started, I was a bit jittery and a bit excited about my first day in college. Mixed emotions to be exact. So probably most of the freshmen now are going gaga for college life. Maybe some of them are restless, uneasy, still posting on Facebook, and some are staying inside their dormitory or apartment dreaming and hoping that things will be okay when they wake up the next day. So I will let you in on some tips I think are somewhat helpful since I've been to college.

TIP # 1

Wake up early, eat your breakfast, and most especially take a bath. Be 30 minutes ahead of your first schedule so you can find your first designated class room. Be punctual because it's a good practice when you start working. Don't sit in front because you would want to see yourself sitting alone in the first row. Believe me, most of the freshmen will sit at the back.

TIP #2

Don't bring too much stuff, or at least those that are not needed on the first day. First day begins with introductions, making friends, and whatnot. So don't bother to parade your new school supplies. Just bring one notebook, a pen or pencil, bottled water, snacks, and lunch money.

TIP # 3

Don't be bothered about high school labels, you're a college student now and things will be different. Seriously, you can be the same person that you were in high school or be someone that you're least proud of. Tomorrow will be different, tomorrow will give you a chance to change and be the person that you want to be, the person that was kept bounded in high school. The real person in you!

TIP # 4

Wear not something glamorous, wear something plain and simple. Or at least wear something that is appropriate to the weather or season. You wouldn't want to drag attention, or if you want attention then go ahead and wear your winter coat in Africa!

TIP # 5

Never ever go to school fuming with alcohol, or else you'll be spending your first week of college under suspension or worse.

So here are some tips that I have for you, freshmen. I hope you all get to enjoy your college life and expect the unexpected!

Cheerio!

86,400 Seconds

2011-06-03T23:53:00.001+08:00

Best things always happen when you're not looking for it. Some days can be more than a moment and some days are not worth remembering at all. Neither of us can make a perfect day, but we can make one moment in a day soar like a candy wrapper caught in an updraft. We just have to make the most of every breath we take in and out for life.

We have 86,400 seconds in a day. Every second counts, every second can hurt us, every second can make us wait, every second can give hope, and every second can give us a new beginning. We have 86,400 seconds in a day, and you'll still have more if you will keep yourself alive and make every second worth more than a thousand moment.

Every chance is a divine gift, it's a divine intervention; it's a time to renew our hope and faith. Things don't happen by accident, things happen because we let it to happen. If disappointments can make us a better person, then I won't give it for the world.

Manual Photography

2011-06-01T21:32:00.002+08:00

Why hello there! It has been almost a month since my last blog, "writer's block" is an epic failure. So here it goes, I got my new camera 2 weeks ago and I'm having fun with it. Finally, my cameraphone will have its rest, it has a new owner actually. I sold my Cybershot C901 to a friend since I have my own camera now. Anyway, I had sleepless nights with my camera 'cos I want to learn how to operate it manually. I finally got connected (somehow) with it after doing some research on the internet. I'm such a "photographer wannabe".

As much as possible, I avoid using flash when it comes to pictures. It has its pros and cons but I prefer not to use flash because it usually burn-out and leave the background in total darkness-- I don't want that to happen with my pictures.

There were 3 things I learned after reading some articles and blogs about Manual Photography: ISO, Aperture, and Shutter Speed. I'm still in learning process and I'm not giving up! Here are my sample pictures with my Manual Photography.

For those who want to learn more about Manual Photography. Click here!

Mother's Day.Facts.Trivia.

2011-05-08T13:01:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I have no time to complain about the weather. I call this weather the "bed weather". No sign of the sun today and it gives me reason not to be busy for awhile. Happy Mother's Day to all super moms out there! That's my mom, she's one in a million. She has 5 boys in her life, 5 boys who love her so much-- her children and her husband.

My mom does a lot of things for us, aside from cooking delicious meals everyday and doing household chores, loving her Family unconditionally is what she does best.

My mom and I talk a lot because I'm the loquacious one. Ha-ha! She talks a lot too you know. That's why we get a long well.

My mom's smart, witty, kind, understanding, and gives a lot when she has something to give. She's the youngest child of my late grandparents, but her siblings treat her like the eldest. She's tough, well all of my aunties and uncles are tough, but she's the toughest and masungit. She's straightforward but she knows what she means naman.

Facts About Our Mothers, Mama, Mommy, Mom, Nanay, Ina, and the like.

The Republic of the Philippines celebrates Mother's Day every May 8 while Korea celebrates Parent's Day.
Mother's Day is celebrated on various months around the Globe.
Mother's Day is strongly associated with reverencing the Virgin Mary.
Common usage in English language also dictates that the ostensibly singular possessive "Mother's Day" is the preferred spelling, although "Mothers' Day" (plural possessive) is not unheard of.
On April 9, 2003, Satyabhama Mahapatra, a 65-year-old retired schoolteacher in India, became the world's oldest mother when she gave birth to a baby boy. Satyabhama and her husband had been married 50 years, but this is their first child. The baby was conceived through artificial insemination using eggs from the woman's 26-year-old niece, Veenarani Mahapatra, and the sperm of Veenarani's husband.
The youngest mother whose history is authenticated is Lina Medina, who delivered a 6½-pound boy by cesarean section in Lima, Peru in 1939, at an age of 5 years and 7 months. The child was raised as her brother and only discovered that Lina was his mother when he was 10.
In the Bible, Eve is credited with being the 'Mother of All the Living.'
A woman becomes pregnant most easily at the age of eighteen or nineteen, with little real change until the mid twenties. There is then a slow decline to age thirty-five, a sharper decline to age forty-five and a very rapid decline as the women nears menopause.
Elvis Presley, was a mama's boy. He slept in the same bed with his mother, Gladys, until he reached puberty. Up until Elvis entered high school, she walked him back and forth to school every day and made him take along his own silverware so that he wouldn't catch germs from the other kids. Gladys forbade young Elvis from going swimming or doing anything that might put him in danger. The two of them also conversed in a strange baby talk that only they could understand.
A mother giraffe often gives birth while standing, so the new born's first experience outside the womb is a 1.8-meter (6-foot) drop.
Just like people, mother chimpanzees often develop lifelong relationships with their offspring.
Kittens are born both blind and deaf, but the vibration of their mother's purring is a physical signal that the kittens can feel - it acts like a homing device, signaling them to nurse.

Happy Mother's Day!

To Whom It May Concern

2011-05-05T08:34:00.001+08:00

We all have choices in life, but make sure you know how to take responsibilities. You can be fat or thin, sexy and sexual, happy or sad, stupid or perverted, and whatever you wanted to be. You can wait for the right moment to come or move forward if you get tired of waiting/distress, you can dwell from the past and fear the future or do what you can today. We can do everything in life, nobody can hold us back but ourselves.

Life, as we know it, is never flawless. One day we're filled with inspiration and ecstatic emotion then the next day we can be in misery business. Words and lyrics that we get from different minds and music that we put in our hearts and mind are not what you need to feel okay. What you need is to hold on to your Faith, believe that you can make it out alive, your situation may not be great today and you don't want that to happen at all. One day you will magically realize that there's a reason why you're down. Love yourself more than anyone can make you feel.
If you choose to rant about your situation, then follow your heart, do what you want to do. If you choose to cry on the ground or inside a pantry, then dry your eyes out. But at the end of the day, you should always remember that life is in continual cycle. Every phase ends with alteration. What you feel now is ne'er permanent, but if you chose to keep it like what-- don't grumble and deal with it.
Run forward and move forward. Grace will come and clear your path.

I have always loved this song.

Feeling the moment slip away
Losing direction, you're loosing faith
You're wishing for someone,
Feeling it all begin to slide
Am I just like you?
All the things you do - can't help myself...

How do you feel when there's no sun?
And how will you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again?
How will you feel when there's no one?
Am I just like you?

Turning to face what you've become,
Buried the ashes of someone
Broken by the strain
Trying to fill that space inside
Am I just like you?
All the things you do - can't help myself

How do you feel when there's no sun?
And how will you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again?
How will you feel when there's no one?
Am I just like you?
All the things you do

Don't ever feel that you're alone
I'll never let you down, I'll never leave you dry
Don't fall apart, don't let it go
Carry the notion, carry the notion back to me, to me...

Feeling the moment slip away
Feeling the moment slip away

Cause I'm just like you

How do you feel when there's no sun?
And how will you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again?
How do you feel when there's no one?
Am I just like you?

My Stupid Mouth by John Mayer

2011-05-02T09:33:00.000+08:00

I have always loved this video. I can't find a nice music video for it on Youtube but I guess this video depicts what the song's trying to say, I guess. Well I hope you enjoy the song!

My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday

And I could see
She was offended
She said, "Well anyway"
Just dying for a subject change

Oh, it's another social casualty
Score one more for me

How could I forget?
Mama said, "Think before speaking"No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker

And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good
What just slipped out and what went wrong

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again

How could I forget?
Mama said, "Think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh, I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
Starting now

One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire

I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh, I'm never speaking up again
I'm never speaking up again
I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
Starting now

Dear You

2011-04-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

Here's a thought. You're the only I have in the world and if I let you go, I will be as good as a fog. You might think that I'm taking advantage of you since I know that you'd still be with me in the future. I sense that we are both inseparable, I know that because I can feel it. Dear You, nothing can set us apart and I know you're the only one for me. I can settle down with other people but you and I will always collide everyday and forever. Dear You, I know I get rough on you sometimes and still you never hold it against me, you're sincere and I love you for that.

You always get the last word, you know everything about me and even if I tried to run away from you; I ended up embracing you, and I swear, you always hit the right spot, you're the best comfort zone in the world. Dear You, I'm doing good I guess. As a matter of fact, I prefer being with you tonight-- most especially at this moment. People can't really run backwards, but you make it possible every time that I'm clueless about my path and passing age. I admire you for it.

Dear You, you're the greatest creation of God. You're the greatest gift someone could ever have. You give meaning to life, and I'm not afraid of ephemeral time because as far as I know-- you make Time immortal. Dear You, let me thank you for being with me. I'm close to my first quarter of existence, and you're still here raising my spirit and desire. Dear You, you're the greatest Thought in the world. I'm still holding a string and still discovering, I can't do this alone so never ever leave my side-- I'll be insane, seriously.

# 1 Fact You Should Know

2011-04-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

"(Moi) Hi! I'm VJ Ogot, (Din) and I'm VJ Dina, (Both of us) and you're watching MYX! (Dina) The number one music channel in the Philippines. (Moi) Your choice, (Din) your music! (Moi) MYX!" I have this not too crazy dream of becoming a Video Jockey, also know as VJ. Yes I want to be a host! Actually I have this girl friend, named Din, who wants to be a VJ too! We both want to be in that industry 'cos we love cam-whoring in front of the camera (we think it's really cool and fun), we did a lot of silly hosting on cam, de facto! We do it when we get bored, too happy, and sometimes out of the blue! There was this time when we tried doing it at the back of a tricycle going home to our apartment, we talked about our day and all, I think it was a 5-minute hosting act. Then when we got back home, Dina didn't record our act accidentally.

Dina and I want to have our own sitcom on T.V., we want to host a music channel 'cos we both love music, and we also want to host a show about our travel around the P.I. (Network's expense of course). It's fun to work while enjoying yourself at the same time.

About My Day.

I woke up at wrong side of the bed this morning, I alarmed my 2 phones actually but it didn't do any good. Both failed waking me up. So it was 9am and my breakfast wasn't ready to feed my hungry stomach. I ate as fast as I could. After my rushed breakfast this morning, heavy traffic approached me on my way to school. My face was as red as a tomato because I rushed my way going to school (because of rushing blood to be scientific) and summer's heat almost Kentucky fry me! I came like 20 minutes early, thank you Adrenaline!

So here's about my day, what about yours?

Marry Me

2011-04-23T17:36:00.000+08:00

Forever can never be long enough for me
To feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do

Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry Me
Today and every day
Marry Me
If I ever get the nerve to say "Hello" in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm

Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love you
And you're beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me
Today and every day
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say "Hello" in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm

Promise me
You'll always be
Happy by my side
I promise to
Sing to you
When all the music dies

And marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say "Hello" in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Marry me
Mm-hmm

Timing is everything.

The Truth Is

2011-04-23T02:26:00.000+08:00

What if someone out there has been trying to get into our lives desperately that we take advantage of their affection for us unknowingly? There are more than 7 billion souls living everyday and there's only soul perfectly fits us. But it can be tragic, more cruel than fate, knowing that there's someone wants you in their world and fall through them for not making it possible. How could someone love somebody so pure that they can give their every day just to express their love for someone who has no idea of their undying love and sometimes we reward them with false hopes through our false actions? I always ask this to myself, have I given enough love for every person who loves me? The answer is, I really don't know.

-ooOoo-

It's nice to breathe knowing that we are loved everyday, that we are better as a person because of those people who love us unconditionally. We speak the word Love everyday, but sometimes words can't really describe the true meaning of it. It's more than words, more than a promise, more than a shine in the morning; real love in unimaginable, it's the sweetest gift, it's greater and bigger than our body and soul.

I don't know how to give back the love someone is giving me. All I know is that I can love someone the way I know. I don't know if it's enough, I don't know if that's what someone loving me needs in return. But as long as I know how to share my joy to them for the love and care they're are giving me, I guess it's enough (vice versa).

-ooOoo-

Life has no assurance of perfection. We just can't have the best of both worlds. We can love someone with all our lives, but there's no certainty that we can be loved back. We don't know when our hearts would give up, figuratively and literally speaking, it only suggests that we should never take things for granted, that we should not let fleeting moments pass by without giving our best shot for the world.

-ooOoo-

"You ever look at a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you? How many moments of other peoples life have we been in? Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died? Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it."

-Lucas Scott of One Tree Hill

Summer.Tips.About Me.

2011-04-17T19:46:00.000+08:00

My week was not a "Whimsy Summer" to sum my 7 days this week. But finally, my review for Veterinary Licensure Exam started last Monday in University of the Philippines, Diliman. How I wish that I could lay in the sun and feel its warmth on my face, fly like everyone, and enjoy a good summer break. Unfortunately, I have to spend an 8-week review this summer and I hope it will be interesting, well it should be or else I'll end up where I don't want to be.

Summer started weeks ago, I don't know when it started but I noticed that people on Facebook are posting lots of whining about the inflaming summer, some are posting about their summer trips, vacations and whatnot. As for me, I'm lucky to be in a place where I don't have to complain about summer's heat, for now. The shady trees and creek in my place are giving me one cool place to enjoy the season.

I don't know how will I enjoy summer, all I know is that I should focus my attention reading lots of review materials. This is something that I have to do religiously 6 days a week for 8 weeks. To tell you honestly, summer has been like this ever since I started college, seven consecutive summer actually. I'm used to it, and hopefully this will be the last time. *Wishful thinking*

Tips To Enjoy Summer

Get out of the house and get close to nature. Go to the beach and feel the sand on your feet and wind in your hair. Don't forget your sunblock, umbrellas or hats, and drink lots of fluid (water or fruit juice).
Show some skin and wear comfortable clothes.
Exercise because beautiful sunny days are not forever.
Socialize with your friends.
Avoid watching too much television.
Limit yourself from the Cyberspace, be in the real world for a change.
For people who have more free time this summer, do a general cleaning in your house, most especially in your bedroom.
Join some extracurricular activities this summer to escape from boredom.
Read book to maintain a healthy mind.
Spend some quality time with your Family.
Have a summer job to earn money.
Get closer to God.

I don't know what I can do for fun this summer, well I will let it surprise me! How about you, how are you spending your summer? How does summer treat you?

La Bella Vita

2011-04-07T11:16:00.001+08:00

If you can't see the sign, wait for it. Stars will align someday soon, and when it comes, it will fit you perfectly. Life doesn't go the way we wanted it to be, but as long as our world doesn't stop spinning, hence it's not the time for us to give up on something. What must happen will happen, it will be the beginning of everything we've wished for. No one in this world can bring us down but our own frailty. Don't give up trying and smiling, help yourself to see that everything's going to be okay and Fate will take you back to where you really belong. We have nothing to lose as long as we do something, as long we know how to take Risk, and as long as we hope for the Betterment. And after one too many wishful thinking, everything will change around us in a Matter of Time.
Never drag your feet down the Hopeless Swamp, nobody in the World wants you to do it. Everyday is a new day, maybe it's hard to break the way you feel but try to face the mirror and forget about yesterday. Try to change the way you feel and start to find your way out of the Shadow of the Past. Even if your life scores more lows than highs, if you're facing more ordeals than before, and even if you have more goodbyes than hellos; it's still amazing that you're still alive and you have that precious Chance to face tomorrow, to breathe in and breathe out, and to be with the people you love the most. You'll get through the bad ones and have the good ones, just so you know-- many people in this world suffer more than you do today and wishing that they live longer. Some people want to go home, some people want be healed, and some people want to redeem their souls and have a second chance to repent.

You are beautiful, you are amazing, you're still breathing because this is a Beautiful Life.

The Big G

2011-04-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

Who would have guessed reading and writing would pay off? My day ended well today, I graduated from college hours ago! Honestly, it was not that happy since my real batch graduated last year, but what I accomplished was huge! I mean my family and friends are happy for me and it's more than enough to tell that I did good!

From attending minor subjects to surgery classes and thesis, everything has paid off! Graduation is sentimental for me, unlike my brothers who preferred not to attend their Graduation Ceremony since they're okay having their diploma. I didn't get the chance to take a lot of photos today because people were everywhere!

I am no longer a student, and student discounts are no longer possible! Oh well! I wasn't able to have a picture with my crush because I was too shy to ask her, sad? Definitely!

Look how happy I am!

This is Me-an, I have a huge crush on her. She's smart, witty, pretty and kind. We don't have a picture together but at least I have a picture of her!

My mind is not working with me tonight, I'm out of words. Ha-ha! So I guess this is goodbye.. for now! :)

Hope A Little Harder

2011-03-31T00:34:00.001+08:00

I want to share you this short message from a friend.

Do you believe that there are no accidents in life? Everything happens for a reason. Every people we meet will have a role in our lives, be it small or big. Some will hurt, betray & make us cry to become stronger. Some will teach us to realize our mistakes and to help us grow and make us a better person we can be. And some would simply make us happy, whole and complete.

All we are now is everything that is right for us. What we are now is what we should be in the first place; what we must be in order to be greater the next moment we get in on life's misery and when we start to doubt life with its mishaps and misfortunes. Unfavorable moments can make us feel hopeless of becoming the person we want to be. Every mischance is actually a moment of chase, a moment to pursue what our heart's desire; a time to realize that we should go and love life to its fullest.

Hope for the Moment, Hope A Little Harder.

Hurrah For Me-- Just A Short Update

2011-03-29T00:39:00.000+08:00

It's been more than a week since the last time I blogged. So everything is going smoothly as it should be, I'm about to graduate this Thursday and I'm happy about it. After 6 years plus 1 year extension of academic suicide, I am about to kiss goodbye to my life as a college student-- thank God! College has been good to me, one good reason to say that I've made it without killing my professors or putting them under a curse and whatnot. It's sad that my grandparents are not here to celebrate with me for my accomplishment, but I know they're proud of me.

So about the picture, it was taken last Saturday by a friend. Our friend, Mayei, went back here in the P.I. after she migrated with her family in the States 7 years ago. She will have her vacation here until May 4 and it's enough for us to spend some quality time with her. It's nice spending a night with old friends, well all of them are my high school friends. I wasn't able to mingle with all of them since I got stuck between Mayei and Camille, and it's hard to move out my place since there's this fence behind me. But oh well, at least I managed to mingle and laugh even for like 3 hours.

Okbyethanx! =)

Previously on Extra Ordinary People: Rebelasyon

2011-03-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

Actually wala naman talagang dapat ikwento tungkol sa mga kaibigan ko. December last year pa kami nagkasama-sama, matagal na din-- talagang matagal na kasi March na. Si Camille Glodoviza na nga lang yung lagi kong nakakasama at nakakausap eh. Si Tina ayun, busy sa work at busy sa pag-aalaga ng kanyang lola. Si Irwin nasa abroad pa din, dun na yun tatanda ha-ha! May problema yun eh, kaya tanungin nyo sya kung gusto nyong malaman kung ano ang kanyang suliranin sa panahong ito. Si Charese naman tumawag kahapon sa akin para magpa-groom ng aso nya, basta kapag usaping aso ako ang naalala nya, sa ganung sitwasyon lang talaga kasi busy din sya. Lahat sila busy, sila na!

Mga Rebelasyon.

Kamakailan lang eh nakita ni Tina ang kanyang ekis. Syempre nakwento nya sa akin, ayun nakita nya at wala syang nagawa kasi may kasamang ibang babae eh. Na-hurt kaya sya? Tanungin nyo din sya.

Nag-emote sa akin si Charese before. She wanted to die, kasi hirap na hirap na daw sya. Ayaw namang sabihin kung bakit? Malay ko bang hirap na sya sa pag-taas ng gasolina or pagmahal ng Hair Rebond? Ewan ko dun ayaw nya mag share, naglabas pa sya ng sama ng loob! Peace Charese!

Si Irwin, may problema! Huwaaaat! Yeah you read it right. May kinalaman to sa career nya-- wala na kaming sponsor! Ha-ha! Joke lang. Di din sya makakauwi this year, parang last year. He told me na hindi sya makakauwi pero nakauwi din sya.

Si Betcha, wala akong balita kay Betcha! Panay "Like" lang sya sa mga posts ko sa Facebook. Pero nakaka-touch pa din yun ha!

Pupunta si Camille dito sa bahay bukas, feeling ko naka uniform sya kahit bakasyon na sya. Para yun makakulimbat ng allowance nya! Ha-ha! Sumbong ko kaya sya sa Mommy nya?

I Want To

2011-03-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO...

... know how to read minds.

... to sing well.

... learn how to play a music instrument.

... cook and feed the hungry.

... make sad people happy as a pig in sh*t.

... heal people.

... have incredible powers.

... do 25 great things before I reach the 1st quarter of my life.

... be a photographer.

... a licensed veterinarian by this year.

... be on top of a high place and view the city lights with someone special.

... be perfect like a thousand times.

... take all the money in the world and share it.

... wish for more strength.

... make someone to catch me when I fall.

... make the world a better place.

... plant trees all over the world.

... quit smoking!

... hit someone's face and get away with it.

... have a great home and family someday.

... be half vampire and half werewolf.

... date Veronica Callanta and make her think and feel that I'm awesome!

... have stars on my hand.

... wish on a wishing star.

... see the City of Atlantis.

... know Peter Pan's happy thoughts.

... scream at the top of my voice.

... give someone a reason to live.

... avoid the same mistakes.

... be a disc jockey or a video jockey!

... have my own show with Dina someday!

... travel the world without spending anything!

Retreat to Salikneta Farm

2011-03-17T14:05:00.003+08:00

I am happy because the turnout was blissful and life altering. I am glad that I didn't hesitate to come for our over night Recollection in Salikneta Farm yesterday. As usual, I was the early bird that morning since we should be at the meeting place by 6 in the morning, others came after the expected time. Our bus left the school at 7am with one student, I think, who didn't make it and left behind by the drive's bus.

We got there before, I think, or past 9 in the morning. The farm changed a lot, and it's really good! Each 6 people stayed in a mini hut, it was comfy and nice. I stayed with a friend, the name's Oston, together with 3 people from Food Technology Department. Foods were great and the weather's cooperative. It's sunny and windy, and the green trees and grass made everything there alive-- especially the horses roaming around.

The speaker, Sir Fajardo was hilarious and kind. We did a lot of activities with him. We also talked about the "Unconditional Love of God" for us since it was the objective after all. We all never had a chance to keep cellphones, cameras, iPods, and even watches just to keep our focus with the Recollection. It's a good thing though since we really had time to relax and reflect.

The most fun thing I experienced was that, I made few new nice acquaintances there with other Departments. All of them were really nice and they smile and laugh a lot.

The pretty lady from left is Me-an Duran-- I have a huge crush on her! She's smart, cheerful, and witty. I find her really really attractive, especially when she talks to me. Her voice is magic! ha-ha! I actually lost my guts (not totally me) to ask her to have a picture with me before we leave the place this morning. Damn I'm torpe (dork)! Anyway, before this month ends I'll have a picture with her.

My 2-day Retreat was really awesome. The adrenaline rush took the best of me and made me hyperactive to greet everyone there with a smile. I made people laughed there with my "humor" and it's crazy!

More pictures HERE! That if we're friends on Facebook.

P.S.

Yes I reactivated my account, for a while.

Wishful Thinking

2011-03-16T01:05:00.001+08:00

I'm not going to review for awhile tonight since I have to wake up really early, like 4am just to prepare for a Retreat before I graduate. I somehow miss Facebook, not that much but I still miss reading posts from people I know. I feel disconnected with the World now that my Facebook's deactivated. I have no friends going online on Multiply 'cos obviously they're on Facebook. Boo for me!

I am religiously reading my books every night at 11pm. It's funny though because it gave me a habit to do every thing before 11pm, it's like I go to school or work when the clock hits 11 o'clock. But at this moment, I decided not to review since my momentum is not in its proper level to do reading tonight. So here I am, blogging as usual.

Our Internet Router is not working properly with the desktop in the living room, but its wi-fi connection is doing good with this laptop that I'm using now. I guess it worn-out since it has been serving our family for more than 3 years, without turning it off. I asked my kuya (older brother) how much it is 'cos I want to replace it with a new one, but my kuya insisted that he'll buy us a new one, a more expensive one since it lasts longer. So I dunno to him. I just go with the flow. :)

My kuya told me to sell my phone because he is planning to buy me a new one. I don't know about it since I love my phone because it is serving me well until now and ,most especially, it has an amazing camera that I've been using with my photography for more than a year now. I'm not that sure if I'll get a better camera with what my kuya will give me. I will look into it and will give you an update!

I wish to do great when I take my board exam, I wish to have a great 2-day retreat away from home, and I wish to have a wonderful replacement for my phone this month!

I have to hit the hay now, good night!

A Matter of Time

2011-03-11T02:38:00.000+08:00

a matter of time

I'm one of those people you see every now and then, with a common thought and personality. I am nothing but a man of dreams and reality. I know nothing about you, but I know myself fully well. I have thoughts that struggle, a heart that goes fragile when weak, and a soul that gets off track. I am delusional and it keeps me sane in my own private world. I laugh when I'm funny, I go crazy when I'm in turmoil. I get displaced when I'm lost. I am a common man, nothing special.

I am in love with every role I play day in day out. So in love that I can do it over again. I see nothing but the mystery of life. I feel nothing but the spirit of wonders. I talk only to people who know how to mingle, and people who know how to create a good mood.

Things happen naturally and Behavior tags most of the time. Worries don't come by itself, it goes with Reason. A blue sky for a blue soul, it's not unusual. It's a true crime for taking life seriously and avoiding the greatness of contentment.

Life is conundrum itself. Every cliche, every magic, and every song you sing--- it takes a lot of understanding and affection. Life is a deal, it's risk that we should never take for granted.

We shouldn't talk about the hard place, we should share it so people can feel our sincerity. We should not go back to who we were light years away, because it can leave us half dead inside our heads. We eat, digest and the rest is history. The moment it's done, it's done. There's no turning back.

There's nothing we can do when it's over, but reflection can cure our insecurities. We can fall in line to the sun and give the way to the darkness of the night. We can hope even if it goes around the world.

There's always another day, and we all can be okay. It's matter of time-- so hold on.

Deactivated.Review.Natural High.Great Love.

2011-03-11T00:57:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since the last time I blogged. I've been busy like that! But tonight, I'm going to let you in on a little secret, I deactivated my Facebook account and I think this is the second week since the day I cancelled my Facebook account. Well I have plans bringing it back when I'm done with what I'm doing these days. I should have done that after I blogged about IT . And yes, I failed myself and it's lame. But now, I am more serious than before. I am seriously over Facebook! Whoopee! I am no longer human! LOL

I'm doing okay if you want to how am I doing these days. I'm a bit thrilled and happy for my graduation on April! Hurray for me!

I do my review every 11pm to 2-3 in the morning. I'm doing good about it (I guess?) and I hope I'll do good on the day that I'll take Veterinary Licensure Exam this August. Why do I study late? It is because I stay awake that late every night because I can't sleep, so I took it as an advantage to keep my night sickness "productive".

The Truth Is...

I have this wonderful friend that I met last semester. She's kind and witty. She keeps me sane and comfortable. If my heart tells me to love her more than a friend, then probably I would. But no, I only see her as a friend--- a good one. And I am happy to have her in my life, I hope I make her feel the same thing.

I miss to love someone more than a friend, it's one great love that I've been missing for so long. I was in a relationship in February 2008. And until today, I am single but I don't think I'm available and ready to change my status for being single for more than 3 years and still counting. Maybe that's the reason why I'm still single.

I want to be in a natural high and feel the good old ecstasy flowing in my system. Yes I'm okay, but my every day is not always sunny. Of course I have dim moments too-- I don't live in Lala Land. And for the record, no one in the World is ecstatic all the time. If there's someone like that, I guess s/he is from Heaven.

And So About What I Said

I really I hope that everything that I do for the Board Exam will pay off nicely this year. It's one thing that I've been dreaming, praying, and hoping to happen this year. So help me God.

And oh! my Multiply account is active again, you can reach me there or here!

Self-defined

2011-03-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

Life is about creating yourself. It's what you do that defines you. Love affairs can fall over and over again, and in every cliche that you learn to love along the way makes it easy for us to breathe the air that is so rare, we fall in love with its wonder that's so full and pleasant for our heart, body, and soul to muse. Life doesn't define us, it is us that define the true meaning of life. Life is not about surviving, life is about understanding it.

No one knows exactly how we feel, otherwise you need to hope that the metaphor that you want to apprehend would reach the desire your heart yearns for. We always have the chance to grow, to give time for ourselves to create a perfect moment to take in. A moment that will make our hearts do its best in time of distraction and confusion.

Running away doesn't mean your weak nor make you defeated. Sometimes being away from the people you care can give you a space to make the most of what you think is absolute zero. Being away from the people you care can give you time to grow up, because it's your job to understand why things happen. Nothing is easy, everything happens for a reason and we shouldn't blame anyone for anything-- it will not change nothing.

Life may keep you stumble in circles, but you always have a choice. There are lots of rhetorical questions wandering on your mind, and we all know that in every question we throw-- we always know the answer.

Office Hours

2011-03-02T16:53:00.000+08:00

At exactly 11:51AM yesterday, my friend told me via SMS "OGOT, GAME NA!" So I rushed in to see her, it took 40 minutes or more to meet her at Trinoma's department store. Dina asked me to help her look for some clothes she was asked to do that day. It was a bit tiring to walk around, but I enjoyed it even if it worn my feet again from a never ending walk around Men's Wear section. Dina wasn't supposed to leave her office without permission from her boss, but since her boss was absent; Dina decided to do her task without her boss' consent. As what Dina's boss told her--- Dina lost her command! ^^

I spent most of my day with Dina. And Dina spent her office hours with me, we loitered along in the sunshine, had fun eating and talking about stuff -- especially Dina's trouble, the next day, with her boss. I don't know what happened today with Dina. I hope she's okay!

We had our dinner at Slice N' Dice in AliMall Ground Floor, Araneta Cubao, Quezon City. Dina dined there once with her mom before leaving for Bicol last Monday. So she asked me to have our dinner there since she finds that's restaurant okay! And she was right, the food there was okay! Of course, Dina treated me again! Oh yeah I'm a free loader. LOL

Something To Remember:

Because Dina was worried because of her boss. Her phone's battery almost got drained because of calls and SMS from her boss. Dina and I looked for a place where we can recharge her phone's battery, luckily we found a place.

And because my favorite TV series starts at 9pm. I rushed myself to get home before it starts! LOL

Pagsigaw ng Pagsinta

2011-02-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

Isang hiling na mula sa hangganang aking nais marating

Isang ambisyong galing sa mga bituing walang tigil sa pagkinang

Ako'y sabik sa pagbabalik ng pagkakataon

Mga oras na nais muling makamtan

Wag ka ng magdalawang isip, sana ika'y aking muling masilayan

Huwag mo sanang bigyang bahid ang aking hiling

Pwede bang tayo'y maglapit at bigyang halaga ang isa't isa?

Pangarap kong ako ay iyong isipin sa tuwing ikaw ay nag-iisa

Simula ng ikaw ay mawala sa aking mundo

Ako'y nawalan ng dahilan para umasa sa kinabukasan

Ang damdamin aking pilit kinukublihan ng tuwa at ngiti

Ay pilit nagpupumiglas upang ikaw ay muling marating at makapiling

Ang pusot't isipan ko'y pilit kumakawala patungo sa iyo

Nais kitang mahagkan, kahit alam kong tapos na ang lahat sa atin

Ang mundo ko'y di mapalagay sa pag-alis ng iyong liwanag

Sa bawat sandaling ako'y natutulog sa ilalim ng mga tala't buwan

Ako ay nagnanais na sana'y di na magising pang muli

Kung wala ka rin lang sa aking piling sa oras na ako'y magising

Lumalim na ang sugat na dulot ng iyong paglisan

At sadyang pilit akong sinasanay ng katotohang ikaw ay di na babalik pa

Isang kahapong hindi ko nais kalimutan mapagkailaman

Ngayong gabi ako'y nakatingin sa kawalan

Patanong-tanong kung kailan kaya tayo muli magkakasama

Gustuhin ko mang umasa, subalit ngayon ako'y biglang nagkamalay

Ang inaasam kong masayang ngiti ay sadyang di ko na makukuha sayo

Ang pag-ibig mo'y di kailanman mapapasaakin ng buong-buo

Kung nasaan ka man ngayon, sana'y maisip mo din

Na may isang ako na nangarap maangkin ang iyong pagmamahal

For The Nth Time

2011-02-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

I know some of you have seen pictures of my good old friend, Camille. And you're right. This blog is all about her, her signature pose together with the sun. I actually thought that we'll not go through with this because we had a hard time doing it because of minor disagreements and some silly stuffs. It took us like 15 minutes before getting the right shots! That first picture is my favorite of all! It gives me the billboard photo feeling ha-ha! It's like she's advertising clothes and stuffs! That's how I imagine that picture!

I love this shot. Actually this is like the first time I go for colored pictures with her since we do black and white photos most of the time, in my room. So we had this taken in my house's backyard for a change and to get closer to the sun. Her new polished nails were real nice, together with her white top. Well actually she prepared all of her clothes and she also did her make up and hair.

I actually used HDR here. It gave me a nice result, I think. If you want to know what camera I use for all of my pictures-- it's my good old trusty camera phone. I don't have a good camera because it's too expensive. I'm pooooor! I wish my father would give me one as a gift after my graduation this April. Wishful thinking.

Food Trip in Diliman with Dina O.

2011-02-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

"And when the moment stopped, I ended up smiling-- it's a nice day after all! My day ended well today, and I realized that Life depends on how you live in every step you take, it's how you breathe in every moment you choose to live with, it's about how you make yourself happy with all the great possibilities that are obviously waiting for you to take. Happiness depends on you, and you shouldn't miss it for the world." -Moment of Soliloquy

These were the words I posted on Facebook last night after a wonderful day with a friend. I was too tired to blog about my great day last night so this is a delayed post.

Dina and I went out together to have dinner in an eat-all-you-can buffet somewhere in Diliman, Quezon City, Philippines. We're supposed to have dinner with another friend of ours but she didn't make it. Dina has been telling me this Carideria Buffet along V. Luna Avenue in Quezon City. And because she's too happy and all that day for a reason, she treated me big time!

The ambiance was good. The set-up was the same with other eat-all-you-can buffets; foods are exposed for your eyes to feast and for your hungry tummy to digest. Believe me, there are lots of foods to feast on for only

111Php! Unlimited drinks cost about 40Php.The prices were a-okay if you haven't eaten for the whole day.

That's Dina! We're friends for like 7 years and counting! I haven't seen her for almost a year, that's why I missed her! She's a good friend of mine in college. She has this great humor in her that I adore so much! We talked about her work and stuffs while eating. She hasn't changed a bit, well maybe she did change but she's still Dina. Dina. Dina. Dina.

So after the great dinner, Dina and I went to University of the Philippines, Diliman to eat the famous Isaw Barbecue (Chicken's Intestine) of U.P. Diliman. We didn't eat a lot of it since we're both full and 2 girls were like looking at us from head to foot. Perhaps they didn't do in intentionally but it was somewhat disturbing. Those mean girls! We walked our night out together, talked about things in a funny way ha-ha. Our feet got tired of walking, well we always walk when we feel like walking. Dina had to go home early because she has some paperwork to do at home. And it's fine because I was tired too. We went home separately, in opposite directions. I had a great time!! Oh sorry for that blurred picture!

All About Love: I Love You And You're Confused

2011-02-18T02:15:00.000+08:00

Love does move in mysterious ways. It can make you happy, feel sad, drown in rhetoric, be bothered, caught in between the middle, feel proud, put your hands in the air, and even make you do all the crazy things in the world. And most definitely, love can make you say a thousand reason why you love someone and how real your love is. Love has always been the greatest feeling in the world, it can give you a reason to wake up each day to feel the sun on your face and to smile with your heart. Love brings out the best in us, and even the worse in us.

I had a great tete-a-tete with a lovely friend tonight. She wants to know if she's being loved back by someone she loves deeply. She actually made the first move by telling the guy about her affection, and I know it took her a lot of guts to confess but she did it anyway. They're actually dating, together with a friend or two, they talk a lot, they see each other in school, they do sweet talk that normal lovers do. But, she's still clueless and waiting. She hopes that everything will be worth it in time.

She's happy and in bewilderment. Happy because she's with her special someone. She's confused because she doesn't know if the guy feels the same way for her. Most likely the guy feels the same way, but maybe it's not the kind of love that my friend has for him. Or probably, he's not really that ready to be in relationship, for now. And maybe, he worries that he can't give back the love that my friend's expecting from him.

As for me, as long as I know I'm happy with someone I love, as long as we get along just fine together, and as long as I'm with the person that I'm in love with; I'm good. And in time, if fate calls for me to give up on her, to let her go, and go on with my life without her in the picture, I'll let her go even if it will hurt me like hell. Because I know to myself that I've loved her with all my heart, and I did everything that I can do for her to love me back.

Love is never boastful, it's never proud nor selfish and vain. Love's not all about who gives more and who gives less. Love has no gauge. Love has no basis. Love has no assurance of happy endings. Great love will come our way, it has its proper place and time.

And if love didn't work out in the end, maybe your happy ending belongs with someone else, it can be from a person you will meet next day in the train, from the person you'll smile at by next week in the elevator, in a summer vacation, in one rainy afternoon under a waiting shed, or under a mistletoe, who knows? Just believe in all the great possibilities of life, one day you're hurting, maybe tomorrow you're crying because of too much joy in your heart.

It Can Be Beautiful

2011-02-16T23:56:00.001+08:00

And so a friend of mine has influenced me with her great thoughts regarding with what she wants to do with her dreams. It's kinda amusing to know that there are some people who want to do something more great than what they do for a living and all. Something that they love doing more than anything else in the world-- the passion of doing something pleasing to the heart. I was moved by her thoughts, but I don't want to rush things up for me. I know that I must take one step at a time, and moving on to another destination with unfinished business left behind is not nice and so lame to do so. I'm 2 steps closer accomplishing what I am doing for 7 years, and I don't want to fall through again since I failed myself last year for not graduating on time. I'll have my diploma this year and I will have my license within this year. It will make my Family proud, especially my Parents and Grandparents. And most definitely, me!

I know to myself that I love my chosen path to reach the career that I want to have, I will not waste years in college for nothing. But sometimes, I imagine myself doing something that pleases my heart. Not that I'm not happy with my chosen path, it is just that there's this burning passion in my heart that tells me to purse my dream of being a Photographer. I guess it's one hobby that I can enjoy doing as a job too.

I know someday I'll have my dreams through hard work. I know someday I will read this post and smile-- 'cos I made dreams into reality.

So I want you to know these things about me:

People with great minds can influence me.
People with great hearts can move me.
People with beautiful dreams can motivate me.
People with honest thoughts can make my heart smile.
People with undying hope can give me a reason to breathe

Thank You, Nev!!! =)

Sick Days

2011-02-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

I actually had a lovely weekend last week. I didn't expect that I'll be terribly sick for 2 days. I'm as sick as a parrot and slightly sick at heart. My head feels heavy, my eyes are drowsy, my muscles are in pain, and my immune system is low---definitely unhealthy. It's hard to force a smile with this state so I locked myself inside my room the whole day. And yes I am slightly sick at heart, I guess I miss my friends and talking to them will cure me. Laughter will always be the best medicine, it's sort of an analgesic for me. My best friend gave me a phone call last night, and it's quite funny 'cos every time that I need to laugh or someone to talk with, he calls coincidently. I think he's been spying on me the whole time, but it felt good actually, you know who you are so I thank you for that. My friend asked me to help her with her project tomorrow, I said yes because I know it can make me sane and all. Well I hope it does.

My niece will live somewhere far and I'm going to miss that little rascal. My other godchild lives miles away from me and now my other godchild will live far away too. It's sad, real sad.

You know what? I feel so alone in my zone. I tried to make myself feel okay, but I guess now that's too much to ask most especially when my health is deteriorating these days. I feel unhealthy and alone in my zone, crap!

You know the feeling when you want to feel okay and think that everything will go better by the moment you wake up the next day and the moment you open your eyes you'll realize that you're still not okay? The magic of making yourself to feel good doesn't work 'cos you know you're not okay. And I'm in that state for 2 days and still counting. I feel sorry for myself and I really want to smile, but I guess I can't act tough all the time when I know I am too weak to do so.

I miss to laugh out loud, I miss beautiful thoughts, and I miss some crazy people. And especially, I miss my happy and smiling health.

All About Love

2011-02-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

Love is undeniable

Love is never jealous nor envy

Love is patient and kind

Love takes no less than everything

Love lights our darkest days

Love is blind

Love chains each one us

Love gives beauty and madness

Love can break us

Love can create a world

Love is an affection

Love is a public display of affection

Love is never too late

Love is a chance

Love is risky

Love is sacrifice

Love creates a smile

Love can change everything

Love is crazy

Love is a miracle

Love is a mystery

Love can break your heart

Love doesn't grow on tress

Love has no sex

Love is romantic

Love is never complicated

Love is unconditional

Love brings tears and pain -- but beauty remains

Love brings spark

Love trusts hearts

Love conquers all

Love is joy

Love aches for each and everyone of us

Love never dies
Love is forever

Love is God

Happy Valentines!

As Promised

2011-02-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

So this is it! I'm going to give my best for this academic suicide that I've been planning for a very long time. I'm going to torture myself for weeks and I hope I'll do well for this ambitious "fresh beginning with a clean slate". Two friends of mine encouraged me for it and I thank them so much for their kind and stimulating words. I talked to my other friend long ago and had my other heart to heart conversation with my other friend last night. Both of them were so optimistic about everything that I asked about my review for the upcoming Veterinary Licensure Examination on August this year.
It's nerve racking to think about possibilities actually. I'm not so sure if I can religiously do it. But hey, I shouldn't think of what can happen in the future, instead I should think of what I can do today. Whoa!

Book (Good Side) ^^
Laptop (Dark Side) ><

I have promised myself to stay away from Facebook for 6 months, well good luck to me! Facebook is like a time vortex that sucks all of precious time, Facebook is evil (just kidding)!! I have no control of myself and my time when I use Facebook, I always get stuck reading updates and making updates. So instead of staring point-blank on updates, I'm going to "update" my brain this time for a change. Well I only blocked Facebook in my system and not the other websites that I check daily (Youtube, Blogspot, pornsites (giggles lol) and etc. So I can give updates via Blogspot, whoopee!

You see those books? I have to read them all before Summer, well not actually all, it's too many of them for Pete's sake! I'm planning to have my review at a Review Center in the University of the Philippines in Diliman. Well my school now is nearer from home but I don't want to get the same school attitude and boring ambiance at the same time. So at least I can have a nice ambiance in U.P. ha-ha!
So I really do hope that I can do this! I wish to pass the Veterinary Licensure Exam this. I hope people will not think of me as pasikat (show off) for telling my ambitious plan. So Universe, help me!

P.S.
I'll do Facebook once a week ONLY. So it makes 4 times every month. Not bad. :)

If It Makes You Happy

2011-02-01T23:57:00.001+08:00

So you're sad and hoping you're not when you wake up the next day. It's okay to be sad, I mean it's your choice and you have to deal with it. Don't fret, there are like many people like you who feel sad at any moment in any day of every week in on a year. It can be your neighbor, your childhood sweetheart, your drinking buddy or even your hero, but one thing for sure I know about being sad; as long as your faith keeps fighting to have the comfort that your soul needs, you're still good. As long as your faith doesn't break into pieces, you can make live through that state. Throw some shower of spark in you and you can be a-okay.

Happiness is everywhere, I find mine when I play with my nieces, talk to my great friends, do a little shopping, kill boring time with music, I talk to my dog or even just by blogging my thoughts. No one in this world can bring us down but ourselves. We are the master of our being and the master of our own private world, and if we let our own being drown in sorrow then we'd be all dead by now.

We all have our bad days, with cold feet and dark clouds above our heads. We all cry when we bear too much pain. We all share the same feelings in this world, but the difference is how we take it and how we control ourselves when sanity had evanesce.

If eating too much chocolates can make you happy, then go help yourself. If drowning your sorrow with alcohol can make you forget sadness, then go. If denying everything can make you feel good, then so be it. But at the end of the day, all the crazy stuffs and hilarious stunts you did will not matter-- you know you're still sad. You know you're not okay. But all ends fair, at least you tried to be happy in a day, at least you didn't give up to find ways to be happy and be dreamy and all. You're good, you know how to make a spark even for a while.

But do you know what's the greatest form of happiness? It's God, Family and Friends. These are the greatest form joy you can ever have in this world, and these matter most.

So you're sad? You're lonely? You're not alone dear, you know you're not. You know you still have that spark, that great spark of love, peace, comfort and joy. You have them all in your heart. You'll be okay.

Previously on Extraordinary People: The Secret

2011-01-27T01:41:00.001+08:00

“The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least you're out in the open. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not.”

I talked to a friend moments ago and she reminded me of this quote from Grey’s Anatomy. We never had a chance to talk about her feelings and all. All she ever wanted was to get away from her misery business and laugh her problems out with us, her friends. I felt real sad about it and a bit disappointed, I mean keeping everything to myself is never easy, so I blog just to express my thoughts and feelings about anything and everything. I was really clueless about my friend before she talked to me about her "issue" slash hanging secret or whatever, we haven't talked nor seen each other for a very long time until moments ago. And somehow, now I know what she’s going through—she’s sad and dying to live a normal life again. And I think that she thinks that she can get over it without asking help. I'd say "Good luck with that".

Each tiny mistake you do can make a big difference, and when you’re too late doing something for yourself, you might end up hanging in one corner, dying to turn back the time when people still care.

Maybe I finally understand how obvious people are in keeping secrets. Some people try to be happy when they’re actually not, and some hide secrets because they’re too scared letting their secrets out, because they fear that people won’t understand them. And I'd say it's stupid, how will you know what's bound to happen when doubt holds you back?

I'm gonna let you in on a little secret:

I don't like eating ice cream while walking in public.
I keep myself awake by thinking of finger nails scratching on blackboards.
I talk to myself verbally when I'm alone.
I am conscious about myself, I'm not that confident with my "looks".
I'm scared of explosions and house fire due to a trauma years ago.
I watch porn every night-- well when I'm in the mood. ha-ha!
I want to be a licensed veterinarian/journalist/photographer/a father of 2 or 3.
I love movies with strong girls!
I want to get married at the age of 27 or 28.
I cried when my dog, Fita, died.

What about you? Do you have secrets? Tell it to me, be honest. I'm not cruel.

P.S.

To my dear friend, if you're reading this-- remember that expressing it out can make a big difference, and I tell you-- it does feel good to know that there are people who want to hear from you, because we care. We will always care for you. I love you!

Oh and I want to share a song to you, my dear readers.

Song: The City Lights
Artist: Umbrellas

Lyrics:

If you see me at midnight
Walking the streets
You'll know it was me for I cannot sleep
I've pushed away the dreams
And spoiled the quiet
I'm propelled by fear
And not the righteous

So have you been to a place like this?
To see your breath as it paints against the sky
The fever is near
I wish you were here

I'm thinking ambitious
I've got this feeling things will be alright
So go break a leg night
Been given the green light
So go entertain them
They're waiting for you
They're waiting for you

So have you been to a place like this?
To see your breath as it paints against the sky
Feeling so right and things will run
The fever is near
I wish you were here

Previously on Extraordinary People: My Born Day!

2011-01-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

And I thought they forgot all about it! I was so surprised when they went knocking on my door while singing happy birthday to me! It's nearly midnight but I still feel happy about it.

Who would have thought that this day would turn out this lovely? I mean I didn't expect them to drive all the way here just to give me these chocolate cakes and sing me a happy birthday?

I actually got disappointed when they didn't greet me on my birthday. Of all those people on Facebook who greeted me, I didn't see their names. Not even a call or text that says "Happy Birthday Ogot!". Well I received messages via SMS from them when I feel real down and all because of it the whole day-- in short it's all too late for them to greet me happy birthday. I ignored and denied that my day was doing its best. Well it was actually my fault, when the truth is, my mom cooked delicious food for me! Thank you mom!! Love you!

I guess this was all I waited for, and today ended well. I feel happy tonight, real happy. I love my pretty girls!!

Things happen for a reason, and their excuses were undoubtedly fine. ^^

WARNING: A Total Waste

2011-01-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

I haven't seen my friends after New Year. It's been like what, like 2 weeks and still counting. I don't feel sad about it, really! Naaah. I miss my friends. Hey I have to warn you that this is one lame blog entry for this week, don't bother reading it unless you want an update from me. My thoughts have been floating indefinitely a lot lately. I've been procrastinating for 4 days and not reading any of my books. I feel toxic, too much drama LOL not a big deal actually-- shield on!! I've finished reading (I didn't read all the pages, too many to read like that ^^v ) one book and I am supposed to read another book again but unfortunately I am not, 'cause I feel lazy. I can read it some other day naman eh. AND mind you, I have a lot to read!!! Weeeeeee!

Anyway, I'm back playing video games and I miss it! I used to play a lot when I was younger not that I'm old now. I'm turning twenty-four this month FYI, man I'm old! Ha-ha! Old and unproductive! Bummer!

My eyes are tired, really... and I am actually typing words with my eyes close. That's how sleepy and tired I am for playing video game the whole day.

And now my eyes are open again! It's stupid to type these words not knowing if I'm doing it right or now... besides my eyes are working fine with eyeglasses ha-ha. I'm listening Nothing Precious At All by Stereophonics now and I think this sums everything to what I feel at this moment. Well the title itself makes everything actually, even this blog that you are reading right now. I bet you're one of those people who read and leave this page without leaving a comment. Tell me something about your thoughts right now or after reading this worthless piece of sh*t. Ha-ha!

Well I know today's not great day wrapped with all of my desires and happy lala-land.

Hey sorry for this blog... I mean it-- SORRY!

I Am Never Alone, 'Cos I Am Home.

2011-01-10T20:04:00.000+08:00

I feel great each time I'm home. If moments come whirling and blow everything like a hurricane, I know I can withstand every blow life will hit. Blue can always find me, but I know I am surrounded with great love and I am supported with undying trust.

I have people worth loving and I have people who can be the beat of my heart. My love will always be My Home.

I may not be the perfect son, brother, brother-in-law, uncle and godfather-- I know these wonderful people will always be in every imperfection of my being.

I feel good, I feel fine and I feel safe when I am home. I feel like the luckiest guy on earth for having a supportive family and fun loving people. I may not have the perfect family, but I know that imperfection defines true love, an unconditional love.

Never Alone by Lady Antebellum
May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
May you always have plenty
The glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
As every year passes
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

(Chorus)
Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Well I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I'm not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

(Chorus)
Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

(Chorus)
Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Here I Am In The Year 2010

2010-12-31T19:37:00.000+08:00

Mother Theresa once said, “Be happy in the moment that’s enough. Each moment is all we need, not more."

Many things have had happened in the times of yore; discovery, self assessment, tragedy, joyful moments, reunion of hearts, heartaches and etc. The Year 2010 made me realize that good things and bad things happen, the least you expect it to happen.

I failed to graduate, on time, this year and it was really heartbreaking. But one day, after sadness has surpassed, what happened was not that overwhelming after all.

Tragedy happened this year, my Lolo (grandfather) died this year, and he’s with my Lola (grandmother) now. I know they’re both with us day in day out, in our hearts. My family thinks I have moved on, but I’m not that really that strong and nobody knows it but me. And sometimes, when I get sad and down, I still talk to them and tell them all my worries and whatnot.

I’ve made new friends this year in college. The fact that they love their lives in college because of the friendship they have for one other made me miss my college batch buddies more. People always leave, but sometimes they come back. Well maybe they didn’t actually leave, they just have to take another journey, and I hope we all meet at the end. And for my new friends, thank you for making me realize that people can really find the good in one another if you’ll give them the chance to prove their worth.

My best friend spent his Christmas break here in the P.I. We missed him a lot, I missed him a lot. And we actually spent precious and memorable times together this year, this December. With that 10-day vacation, we actually made every moment worthwhile.

My heart is not in its best when it comes to love and private affection. I guess it’s not ready to fall in love again or perhaps I’m holding on too much for that idea and it keeps me losing my track towards the greatest love. I’m scared that my heart loses its desire to love, but as of now, I still enjoy the relationship I have for God, my family and friends. Maybe I don’t need more from love, for now. Who knows after this year, I’ll find the greatest love ever. (Hopeful)

This year made me realize that things happen, good or bad, the least you expect it to happen. And you have to know that not everyday is sunny nor rainy. It’s okay to get gloomy, but be sad once and then move on. Being merry is okay too, actually it’s the best feeling ever, but you should know that it doesn’t stay for good. However, there are pretty things that can make you happy and can make you feel real great for having them; Faith in God, Family and Friends.

This coming New Year, I will make my Faith firmer and Love warmer. It will be a new beginning for the new chapter of my life. Everything will be okay, you just have to believe it will.

Happy New Year!

It's Okay To Be Sad, Just Keep The Faith.

2010-12-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

We push and pull and sometimes we fall down. Sometimes we find ourselves drowning in sorrow until we can't breathe because of too much distress and sorrow. We can't move on because of the worries blocking our way. We can cry anytime, it lessens the pain after all. And the truth is, once we're done being sad and all, we'll see ourselves looking back and realize that yesterday is not that overwhelming.

Don't think that your pain will never end, don't think that you're bearing too much pain in your heart and it's so unfair. As a matter of fact, there are people who suffer more. What you feel now is your choice, it can be temporary or permanent. And I am so sure that nobody wants to be unhappy forever-- not even you nor The Damsel in Distress or Hades of the Underworld would want to be unhappy forever.

Yes you are upset, and yes you are secretly screaming inside. But basically, you know what you want. You now what you heart desires. Failure doesn't stop you for striving for more ecstasy, failure is a sign that you deserve better. Failure is a sign that you need something better beside that favorite sweater you have for ages. Yes you are upset, but you can't be upset all the time-- you'll get ugly inside and out. Yes you are screaming inside, but let your voice be heard.

You are the master of your feeling, you make your life, you make your own point and you make your own conflicts. You are the master of truth, you know what you feel and you know what your strength is capable of. Don't let misery destroy all the possibilities for a brighter morning. It's okay to be sad, just keep the faith of finding a brighter tomorrow.

"Days will always keep coming without a fail. Find yourself, that's where your journey starts." - Tim McGraw